sekejap sahaja

salam a'laikum.

just nak beritahu sesuatu,

Allah itu Hebat!

ok bye. ^_^

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

My Answer Is...

salam a'laikum.

this picture reminds me of everything.

a place where I get to know Him even more.

a place where I understand what is Islam.

a place where make me realise that Allah is enough for me.

there are lots of other places.

and neither about the beautiful scenery.

nor about the adventurous journey.

but it is all about the ibrah that He taught me.

He showed me the light.

when I was blinded by the darkness of jahiliyah.

huh~~ jahiliyah.. so often that word came out.

but the question is, do I really had let go all of the Jahiliyah?

that had burdened me since forever?

that i had never realise before, the jahiliyah will be the one that drag me not to Jannah?

if Allah wanted the best for His abd',

He will give His abd' the understanding in ISLAM.

i know who is Allah before, 

but i never had the urge to understand who is Allah.

why is Allah giving me this opportunity to live for one more day?

why is Allah sending me people that protect me from harm?

why is Allah allows me to inhale His oxygen...

even though I  forget to say Alhamdulillah

I performed my prayers at the eleventh minute

I cried when we sing the "doa taubat" song, but 2 seconds later

I repeat the same sin.

but still He did not send an army of natural disasters upon me.

He is Allah

the Most Gracious the Most Merciful.

I remember,

I asked a sahabat one day,

"I know Allah is the only One god, ahad. but actually who is Allah?"

then, she opened the holy Quran and recite...

as-syu'araa', 26: 77-82

“For they are enemies to me; not so the Lord and Cherisher of the Worlds;

“Who created me, and it is He Who guides me"

“Who gives me food and drink"

“And when I am ill, it is He Who cures me"

“Who will cause me to die, and then to life (again)"

“And who, I hope, will forgive me my faults on the day of Judgment"

 I had my question answered.

how about you?

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

short n precise 2

salam a'laikum.

Allah tahu saya tidak gemar berbicara tentang "hal itu". oleh itu, Dia menjauhkannya daripada saya dengan cara yang sangat hebat. apakah? next post. insha-allah. chemistry paper awaiting. [yo yo oo je nak wat..]

wait, some  R E M I N D E R [s]:

- harus berlapang dada dengan sahabat-sahabat. itu selemah-lemah ukhuwah tahu tak?!

- jangan lupa telefon ibu bapa tercinta, mereka rindu tu... saje malu nak cakap. hehehe.

- sekiranya di dunia ini kita merasakan kesusahan dalam usaha membuat kebaikan dan kebajikan di jalan Allah, don't worry... pengakhiran kita pasti indah, dapat melihat Allah di syurga kelak.. asalkan niat kita sememangnya semata-mata kerana ingin mencari keredhaan Allah. allah ghayatunna!!!

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

senyuman seorang hamba

salam a'laikum.

pernah tak kamu seorang diri, tiba-tiba tersenyum. ya, senyum seorang diri. pernah tidak? kalau ada orang nampak, mesti mereka katakan, "Apa masalah kamu?". 

lagi menghairankan apabila kamu tersenyum seorang diri tatkala kamu sedang menghadapkan diri mengabdikan roh dan jasad kepada Ilah kita, Allah. lagilah orang kata, "hey, gile apa senyum masa solat!". 

salah ke seorang hamba merasakan bahagia di saat bertemu dengan Pemilik Nyawanya?

petang itu. aku masih ingat, aku diuji. berat. sangat berat. sehingga ada satu saat aku mempersoalkan takdir. astaghfirullah... sungguh tidak bersyukur dengan ketentuan Allah. tapi, alhamdulillah Dia tidak membiarkan aku terus lemas dalam pemikiran aku sendiri. senantiasa Dia membantu aku untuk terus berfikiran positif. segala yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah disebaliknya. dalam islam, there is no such thing as coincedence. Allah itu Maha Hebat. Dia tidak akan mensia-siakan hamba-hamba-Nya yang meminta dan menangis padanya. 

pertemuan aku dengan Allah semasa solat asar, betul-betul aku rasakan Dia dekat dengan aku. tidak sedikit pun aku sedih mengenangkan keputusan takdir aku. nak dipendekan cerita, aku tidak punya apa-apa perasaan. aku juga keliru. bagaimana aku boleh begitu tegar? tapi aku yakin, jawapannya ialah kerana Allah. aku hanyalah seorang manusia yang bernafas dalam jiwa hamba. aku lemah tanpa-Nya. aku khuatir, mungkin di saat itu, aku kuat aku hebat kerana Allah. namun, aku takut... aku takut perasaan itu hambar tatkala masa menjadi musuh. penantian itu satu penyeksaan bukan? maka, aku meminta, aku meminta lagi kepada Allah.

"ya Allah, sekiranya aku mengalirkan air mata selepas ini sehebat air sungai Nil yang melimpah ruah ataupun sederas air terjun Niagara... aku mohon Ya Tuhan, aku mohon agar janganlah Engkau jadikan air mata itu air mata meratapi nasib kerana tidak menjadi yang terpilih untuk pilihan dunia ini. sebaliknya, jadikanlah air mata itu bukti aku berasa bahagia mendapat tarbiyah dari-Mu. air mata keseronokan kerana menjadi yang terpilih untuk dipandang dan diberi perhatian dalam kalangan beratus-ratus manusia di KMB ini."

alhamdulillah... Dia Maha Mendengar. Maha Memakbulkan Doa. aku pendam. aku simpan rasa sedih itu. aku simpan agar yang terzahir hanyalah rasa syukur kerana menjadi hamba-Nya yang terpilih meskipun bukan pelajar yang terpilih. 

sedang aku berbicara dengan teman sebilik, aku mengalirkan air mata sulung ku. lega terasa hati ini. hilang beban apabila punya sahabat yang mampu melahirkan butir-butir kata yang mendekatkan diriku yang lemah ini kepada Tuhan Pencipta sekalian Alam. aku sebenarnya gembira, tidak tahu aku gambarkan perasaan ini. ya, secara logiknya aku seharusnya sedih kerana masa depan aku kabur...  tapikan logik itu poyo! air mata itu bukan untuk DUNYA. air mata itu adalah kerana aku dapat merasakan kehangatan kasih sayang-Nya. Dia sedang memerhatikan aku menangis di bawah rimbukan pokok kerana-Nya. Dia sedang mendengar rintihan aku, bicara aku tentang-Nya. aku bersyukur kerana aku diberi peluang  untuk sedar bahawa aku ada Tuhan.

sepanjang masa sebelum isyak menjelang. aku telah menerima berbagai-bagai kebaikan baik dari sahabat terdekat mahupun manusia sekeliling yang mewarnai hidupku di KMB ini. aku terkesima. bertubi-tubi kebaikan yang menghujani aku. sehinggakan aku merasakan akulah yang paling bahagia di dunia ini. seakan-akan Dia ingin mengubati luka di hatiku. terima kasih Ya Allah. benarlah, sekiranya kita betul-betul memiliki cinta Allah itu, kita akan rasa begitu bahagia sehingga boleh jadi gila. hahaha. gila apakah? hurm... selang lima minit, akan ada manusia yang dihantar-Nya untuk memberikan apa-apa sahaja yang aku idam-idam selama ini. sungguh Dia Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu. nikmat Tuhanmu manakah yang kamu dustakan?!!!

sambil tersenyum, aku mengucapkan kesyukuran yang tidak terhingga. masa yang begitu singkat untuk merasai kehangatan kasih-Nya telah menghapuskan kesedihan dan keserabutan yang aku alami sepanjang tiga minggu lalu. He saved the best for last. sehinggakan aku mampu tersenyum di saat membaca al-fatihah, 1: 1-7. kerana tidak sabar aku untuk bertemu dengan-Nya. sudah lama aku menerima pemberian-Nya, dan kini kerinduan aku pada-Nya begitu kuat. namun, sudah layakkah aku untuk melangkah masuk ke syurga-Nya?

rasa bahagia itu masih mekar sehingga saat ini. masih aku senyum seorang diri mengenangkan betapa manisnya tarbiyah Allah itu. sehinggakan aku merasakan bahawa, aku tidak memerlukan apa-apa lagi sekiranya aku ada Allah. 

Dia mengambil sesuatu dari kita, bukan kerana Allah kejam. tidak... tapi Dia ingin memberi yang lebih baik untuk kita. kerana hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diri yang hina ini, sedangkan kita tidak mengetahui. 

albaqarah, 2: 216, sayang Allah.

hasbi rabbi, Allah is enough for me.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

short n precise

salam a'laikum.

solat isyak sambil terseyum. apakah?

i really love to write about it. but... not now.
internet connection also a bit slow. ok.. it is waaaayyy slow.

R E M I N D E R [s]
- sabar ye, Allah tengah lihat kita tu.
- lepak sudeyh... Allah kan ada.
- tak salah nak menangis, tapi lepas itu, harus BANGKIT! harus hebat, yosh!!!
- Allah bagi ujian sebab nak menyediakan kita supaya lebih super hebat apabila menghadapi ujian yang lebih power kelak. baik kan Allah?
- cintailah Allah, sebagaimana Dia mencintai kita. ai love yu Allah!!!

happy birthday ya rasulullah. we miss you so much.
majlis sambutan maulud nabi tadi, Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah... subhanallah.

insha-allah next post, a bit more deep. assalamualaikum. ^_^
The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

aku bukan robot

salam a'laikum...

we can only plan right? but He is the One who will be deciding whether what we planned can become reality or not. even though it is hurting when what we had planned didn't came out as it suppose to be, don't be sad. innallahama'ana. He is always with us. Allah kan ada... He knows the best for us. 

that was my first test for today. what was it? let just say, i am the one who are left behind. not that people left me but I had to make decision to stay back. sounds pathetic right? i know. but i strongly believe that Allah had planned something better for me here and not over there. sabar ye. 

ok, for a week, may be two. SERABUT, keserabutan... had overwhelmed me. i tried to find why? what is Allah trying to tell me? where did i go wrong? all of the questions keep on bugging me and contribute to me keserabutan. blerrgghhh...!! and then, after long jouney searching for the answer, my suffer ends. 

'uzlah. means like separating yourself from the society for a while. [memencil/ mengasingkan diri]. it is human's fitrah. even Rasulullah had his uzlahs.to be alone and muhasabah. and i had mine. yeah, sometimes we do need time alone. but then, isn't it like selfish? thinking of myself more than others? so, i asked a sahabat. she said, it depends on the reason why i need my time alone. the only reason why i need that time alone is that i want to get my head back in the game and find Allah in my heart. i think i had been doing stuff like a robot. just do work but my heart in just not there. emptyness. huh~~~

so, He gave me this keserabutan, double SERABUT with all the assignments that need to be submitted all in one day. again, blerrrgghh!! hurm... sabar ye. it is just like negative feedback mechanism. when we feel lost or not in a homoestatisly-regulated phase, He will initiate something in order to get us back in the right mode.

two days back, alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.... all praises to Allah. i found back the lost feeling inside 'here'. i forgot how much seronok it is to put my head on the praying mat and just sujud. not to ask anything, not to beg for anything. just sujud. again, i remember the long lost feeling of being one of his hamba. knowing that we have Allah, and feel that we have Allah are two different things. we all know that Allah kan ada, but do we certain that Allah is there in our heart? i get my answer. subhanallah... the feeling was freakin' awesome! thank you Allah. told ya, He was saving the best for last.

R E M I N D E R

if we are doing something for the sake of our ad-deen, please make sure that we do not end up being a robot that just do things because other robots are doing it and not knowing the purpose of its creation. jangan jadi robot dakwah.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

mulia

salam a'laikum.

please listen with your heart.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

observe; stalker?

salam a'laikum.

doubt is the key to knowledge. ahah! tomorrow i'm going to submit my TOK essay!  currently editting the essay that had been haunting me since 3rd semester. insha-allah, tomorrow the whole class M09B will be uploading our essays in turnitin.com and on Monday, the day when everyone can sleep with their eyes close... the essay will be finalised and send to IBO. insha-allah. Dear Allah, please help us.

for this whole week, i think i didn't talk much. [eceh, poyo je]. i observed more. along the way to class, i saw people, specifically students; they were rushing to the Dewan Selera, were sending their laundries, girls with their handbags [i dont use handbag], guys some with no bag at all... simply held books in their hands. teachers; they sent their kids to Taska An-Nur, some of the kids were happy to see their friends and some cried may be it was because it was too early in the morning to be seperated from their beloved mothers.

in class, i am sitting at the end of the row. BELAKANG SEKALI. but i am enjoying my time there. i can do what ever i want without concerning about others observing my behaviour. why? hehehe... because i am the one who are observing my classmates. sort of like a stalker. they talked, they facebooking, they talked, they studying, they talked, they laughing, they talked, they bla bla bla... it is fun to observe people's behaviours. because people act naturally when they didn't know they are being observed.

ok, i saw a friend's laptop screen. his laptop's screen was showing a band that sings and plays guitars. then, i remembered my first guitar. at home. huh~~ before I asked for the guitar [yes, gedik tak mintak gitar??], i do know that guitar actually is not allowed in islam becaused it is a stringed instrument. but, when Yusuf Islam played it in his songs, i was like, 'ok lah. boleh je kot'. but now, i doubt. because i still did not find the solid reason why guitar can be played. [ye ke?]. 

hurm, i know. i'm a beginner. not even know how to play Do Re Mi chord. the only song that i know is the birthday song which i supposed to play it to someone special but i didn't, because of the doubt. actually, what am i talking about?

what i am trying to say is that,

when we like something, even it is forbid... we will work our best to find excuses in order to unforbid [ahah.. tak wujud kan?] the forbidden. it is simple actually, if Prophet Muhammad pbuh said NO, then it means NO. if Allah said NO, then it is a big No NO!! there are more things to be concern about rather than thinking about guitar. itu dunya!! so, now. the guitar is at home, alone, covered with dust, could be mummified. 

observing people actually served me a path to reflect myself. hurm...

i am a great stalker. the positive one la! insha-allah. i stalk others to make analysis about human behaviour [ahahha, poyo kot!]. in TOK, i learned that PEOPLE ACT DIFFERENTLY WHEN THEY ARE BEING OBSERVED. but do we ever realised that we are being observed all the time? hah??? by who? ah-Ha!!! Allah la.. but do we act differently all the time? hurm.... i also kinda pening thinking about this. well, it is theory of knowledge. 

sorry if this post is confusing. if it is, ignore. if it not, alhamdulillah... someone can understand. tabik spring toink toink!!! 

ok ma'assalamah.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

^_^

salam a'laikum.

selagi mana kita tidak lulus ujian Allah dengan cemerlang [ala ala flying colours], kita akan terus diuji dengan ujian yang sama. sehinggalah saat kita berupaya untuk senyum bila Allah  uji kita untuk kali terakhir.

"Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."

[al-baqarah, 2:216]

dush dush dush!! [aduh sakit]

argh! tension! 

eh.. jangan tension tension... Allah kan ada ^_^

Allah tahu yang terbaik untuk kita kan? jadi, aimirokishebatkeranaAllah, janganlah kamu membenci atau menyukai sesuka hati kamu tanpa ada kebergantungan kepada Allah, kerana kamu sendiri  tidak tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diri kamu.

sepanjang masa kita akan ditarbiyah oleh Allah. Dia yang sangat sayang pada hamba-hamba-Nya tidak akan sama sekali meninggalkan kita dalam keadaan terkontang-kanting tanpa sebarang panduan. apakah? ingat Surat Cinta-Nya? itulah manual kita. tapi, bukan masa bermasalah jiwa raga sahaja baru nak baca Surat Cinta.  [usah berpoyo di situ]

sekarang di ambang zaman yang perlu memotivasikan diri sendiri. well, saya memang hebat. [oh, ini perasan sungguh]. hebat kerana saya seorang musleem [ok, muslimah]. hebat kerana saya ada Allah. sebab Allah super duper Maha Besar. hebat kan?

yes, i do have chemistry design experiment to be done, i have english paper 2 question to be analysed, i have TOK essay to do final touch up, i have biology report to be submitted on friday... but.. errr.. ok no but. got to go. ^_^

just want to share a R E M I N D E R, [sorry mixing english and malay in one post], never put Allah in the second place in our hearts. He is the only One who should be in our heart. cinta siapa? cinta Allah.

no matter how hard the test will be, no matter how much it will hurt you fragile heart, no matter how many liters of tears you have shed, He just want the best for you. because Allah loves you. yes, Y-O-U! 

ok, bye.

sorry, i just recovered from my "keserabutan". alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. want to know how? simple, always remember that, Allah kan ada... [huh~~ how can i forget about it? haish..]

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

serabut, kah?

salam a'laikum.

i asked a sahabat today, she was the second person that i asked the same question,

"boleh tolong bagi something yang dapat hilangkan keserabutan dalam kepale nih tak? please. tolong la."

she smiled. and she just smiled.

like a telepathy, i can read her smile.

she said something but without words,

"ingat Allah tak masa tengah serabut tu?"

then, she opened her bag and took out His Love Notes. and shared with me surah ad-dhuha, the 3rd ayah.

"Tuhanmu tiada meninggalkan kamu dan tiada (pula) benci kepadamu"

huh~~ no matter how bad i did today, He will never leave me alone in this keserabutan. i feel, blessed. Oh My Allah, i dont have the strength to stay away from You.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

moga tak tersalah pilihan

salam a'laikum.

ujian terbesar ialah apabila kita perlu lepaskan mereka yang paling kita sayang dalam membuat keputusan. itu susah. lebih-lebih lagi apabila sinar kasih sayang tersebut baru sahaja kita rasai walaupun sudah sekian lama bergelumang dalam masyarakat. 

walaupun, baru dijumpai, dirasai, dan terpaksa membuat pilihan... saya yakin, Allah telah menyediakan yang terbaik buat kita semua yang bergelar hamba ini. iya la, siapa kata cinta Allah itu tak mahal? haruslah diperoleh dengan satu usaha, jihad yang hebat. huh~~ keluarga. kadang kala apabila menghadapi dua pilihan, sama pilihan pertama= keluarga ataupun pilihan kedua=[fill in the blank], bak kata seorang sahabat, hati ini seperti terbelah 40. yang mana satu? pilihan kalbu? ahaks [macam lagu Saloma pulak]. 

tiba-tiba teringat akan pesanan diri sendiri kepada seorang sahabat, "apa-apa pilihan yang dibuat pasti ia adalah yang terbaik... untuk agama kita sebab we are nothing without Islam". zaaaaaaaaaaaappp!!! sekilas tamparan maya terkena di muka sendiri. ok sekarang, sudah tahu nak buat keputusan apa?

diakui saya bukanlah seorang yang penuh dengan keperihatinan kepada orang lain. tetapi, jalan ini mengajar saya untuk melebihkan orang lain lebih dari diri saya sendiri. sehebat-hebat ukhuwah ialah itsar dan selemah-lemah ukhuwah ialah berlapang dada. well, saya masih belum berjaya sampai ke tahap tertinggi itu, [jauh sekali], manakala hati ini juga sering paranoid dengan manusia dan alam. sepanjang perjalanan hidup ini, saya belajar, hidup ramai-ramai lagi seronok super duper hebat daripada hidup seorang diri dengan bertemankan buku-buku teks dan buku-buku rujukan. tapi, Allah sentiasa mentarbiyah hamba-hambaNya agar tidak melebihkan cinta dunia lebih dari cinta mereka kepada-Nya.

hah~~ cinta dunia. saya benci itu. saya geram bila mana saya lebih kan dunia tanpa saya sedar. too DUNYA. ok jangan emosi. kawal. 

tapi, bilama tiba saat Dia menguji dengan cinta manusia saya lemah. aduh. sukar betul hati ini nak memberatkan mana-mana pilihan. isu kegeraman tidak timbul. yang ada hanyalah "aku bingung". di situlah sebenarnya Allah menguji sejauh mana keikhlasan hati ini mengatakan "jom carik cinta Allah". berat, betul berat. 

terdengar satu cerita,

semasa umat islam ingin berperang [asif, saya tak ingat perang apa], saidina Umar r.a. telah menginfakkan separuh [1/2] daripada hartanya untuk perang tersebut. manakala, saidina Abu Bakar as-siddeq telah menginfakkan seluruh hartanya. kemudian, Rasulullah s.a.w. bertanya, "apa yang kamu tinggalkan untuk keluargamu?"

abu bakar menjawab, "aku tinggalkan mereka kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya". 

Allah Maha Mengetahui, bilamana kepala ini pusing pikirkan jawapan yang tak mampu dipikirkan, Dia hantar bantuan dalam bentuk yang tak disangka-sangka. ^_^

"Dan memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tiada disangka-sangkanya. Dan barangsiapa yang bertawakkal kepada Allah niscaya Allah akan mencukupkan (keperluan)nya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan yang (dikehendaki)Nya. Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi tiap-tiap sesuatu". [at-thalaq, 65:3]

knock knock!! earth to Aimi!!! here ARE your anwsers! dont you see? lain kali, buat pilihan yang betul-betul. asalkan pilihan itu adalah berdasarkan niat ikhlas semata-mata ingin mencari dan mencintai Allah, apa-apa yang berlaku selepas itu, baik atau kurang baik... seronok atau kurang seronok... tugas kita adalah bersangka baik dengan Allah. sebab apa-apa yang terjadi adalah yang terbaik untuk kita. fuh~~ my hands are shaking right now.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

ayuh CUCI MATA hati

location: LT 5A

time: during biology presentation. ah-ha... just miss R E M I N D E R. bio best, bio senang, bio 7! insha-allah

location: netball court

time: 7.30 in the morning. subhanallah... the birds were singing... the ulat gonggok was creeping me out. overall, all praises to Allah.

 location: MCB field

time: morning; when no one else was there.

 location: MCB field

time: after an aeroplane [air asia] passed by.

 location: under a tree

time: a day before CNY holiday. felt tensed in the class. get some fresh air outside.

 location: same. under the same tree.

time: a minute after the previous picture was taken. [looking at this picture, a stalker perhaps?]

location: same O' same O '.

time: 2 seconds before a someone said "aimi!!! buat ape tu?! balek kelas sekarang!.

these are some pictures that were taken when I have nothing else to do. hurm.. tipu la! "nothing elso to do". there is no such thing as that for an IB student. Opss.. not just for IB student. correction! there is no such thing as nothing-else-to-do for a musleem. if we are aware of the problem of ummah, we always have things to be done! semangat sehebat al-'adiyat!

huh~ those pictures actually made me realise that the world is a very blessed place to live. thank you Allah.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

aku JUGA punyai perspektif berbeda

salam a'laikum.

like i promised. it is tomorrow already. and i'm not at home anymore. sad? perhaps. but He knows the best for me.

ok, continue...

why that man chose the treasure instead of the DOTA?

simple, because with the treasure that can feed his family until the 7th generation, he can use it to hire a tutor, the super duper power tutor in dota, the PRO. he thought of the long term. if he choose DOTA, then he'll get to be PRO but that's it. nothing more. so, he made an awesome choice.

ok, anyone understands what i was trying to say?

insha-allah, i'll simplify it. but i think i'll be typing in Malay.

macam lelaki tadi, dia ada peta harta karun untuk mencari harta karun tersebut. kita? kita ada al-quran dan hadith untuk memandu kita kepada Allah. 

daripada peta tersebut, lelaki itu sedar bahawa akan ada perangkap samar yang sedang menanti kedatangan mangsanya. begitu juga dengan kita. allah dan cakap dalam surah al-ankabut 29:2,

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahwa mereka dibiarkan (saja) mengatakan: "Kami telah beriman", sedang mereka tidak diuji lagi?"

kita tahu niat kita nak kejar cinta Allah akan disambut dengan ujian-ujian yang akan lebih memantapkan ketulusan hati kita insha-allah.

dalam cerita tadi, lelaki tersebut ada beri kata-kata semangat dan dia guna kata nama... WE iaitu KITA dan bukan SAYA. menunjukkan betapa dia inginkan kebaikan tersebut untuk semua orang. nak dapat harta karun bagi semua orang kaya. kalau kita? mestilah kita nak semua orang rasai betapa gahnya hebatnya cinta Rabb. takkan nak rasa seorang-seorang. kedekut. mana la boleh seronok duduk dalam syurga seorang diri. ^_^

dan yang terakhir, lelaki tersebut memiliki kecintaan yang amat sgt kepada DOTA sehingga menjadi satu bebanan baginya dalam membuat keputusan tatkala nyawanya sendiri di hujung tanduk.tapi dia pilih, harta karun yang mana dapat mengcover semula kehilangan kemewahan DOTAnya. kalau kita pula? hurm... dalam perjalanan kita mengejar cinta Allah, dalam usaha keras kita memperdalamkan cinta kita kepada Allah, akan ada halangan dan cobaan yang didatangkan oleh Allah untuk menguji tahap keikhlasan niat kita. dan kita akan sampai di satu saat yang mana kita perlu membuat keputusan sama ada inginkan cinta hakiki ataupun dambakan cinta duniawi? 

dan beruntunglah mereka yang memilih cinta Allah yang hakiki kerana dengan memperoleh cinta-Nya dan mencinta-Nya sepenuh hati, urusan seharian insha-allah akan dipermudahkan. usaha sehebat mungkin dan kemudian berserah kepada Allah. manakala bagi yang memilih cinta duniawi, sedarlah bahawa rahmat-Nya mendahului kemurkaan-Nya. masih belum terlambat untuk menoleh ke belakang. ya, kita akan hilang cinta duniawi itu, tapi yakinlah Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk diri kita.

ya saya tahu, untuk membuat keputusan di saat kita sendiri tidak betul, amat payah. dalam membuat pilihan kita selalu mendahulukan nafsu, sedangkan kita ini siapa? hanyalah hamba yang tidak mempunyai apa-apa super power untuk dikasihi sebegitu hebat oleh Allah. malu kepada-Nya.

dan, yakinlah bahawa setiap ujian yang hadir... Allah sertakan dengan pertolongan sebab Dia sayang sangat kepada kita.

ok dah tamat... alhamdulillah ALHAMDULILLAH alhamdulillah

 The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

aku punyai perspektif yang berbeda

salam a'laikum.

currently at home. alhamdulillah.. but not for long. well, rehat bagi seorang daie adalah bukti kelalaiannya. must not be too fragile! be strong! Allah kan ada... ^_^

like i said, there are things that are not settled in "here". kept it silence... untill He sent me someone. someone who actually listened and showed me the light after a few weeks i had been in the dark alley. [erk??]

we often said that, we want to search for Allah's love right? ok, i usually said that. as if like, JOM carik cinta Allah!! somehow, the two hours conversation [almost] with the "honorable advisor" had made me look at CINTA ALLAH from a different perspective. serious, really really opened my eyes. trust me! no? ok fine, let me tell ya.

in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious the Most Merciful.

actually, since we were still in our beloved mothers' wombs [respectively], we already get His love. do you get me? ok like this. without His love, we will not be born. without His love, we will not be able to get required nutrients and dissolve oxygen from our mothers via the umbilical cord. without His love, out hearts will not be fully functional while we are still in mothers' wombs. do you get me? or i just syok sendiri?

hurm... lets answer this question first. [i had questioned this before ^_^]

which one comes first, this universe or love?

[R E M I N D E R this is not the chicken and egg question ok]

if you answered universe, why?

is it because of, Allah create this universe first and then He create love so that we, human can love each other, love the nature, love their belongings and thus creating a harmonious world.. is it?

or, if your answer is LOVE,  then why?

why ooo why...

hurm... for me... love comes first. because, if it is not because of love, His love towards us, the universe, the beautiful amazing awesome marvellous universe will never be created this perfect. He make sure everything is here, complete... so that when we are born to this world... we will not feel empty, because we have Allah. but do all of us feel like that?

this is what i discovered last night. personally, i think i already feel His awesome love, with this blessed life, lovable family, hebat sahabat2. but the question is... do i love Allah as much as Allah loves me? 

that what made me really really ashamed of myself. i want to meet Him. really! who doesn't? but what do i do in order to let my heart fully fill with His love? hence, i tried. tried hard. really really hard to let myself learn to love Allah and Rasulullah. but for a priceless love, the most hebat love of all it will cost me a bomb! as if like... it is not easy to get something that is super hebat like mencintai Allah seperti kita dicintai Allah. 

here is a short lyric by Raihan: Mencari Cinta

di dalam mencari cinta yang sejati

banyaknya ranjau kan ditempuhi

di dalam mendapat cinta yang hakiki

banyaknya onak yang diredahi

ok it is long, i know... if you want to stop reading, then it is fine. i just want to share that, we need to reflect back, do we live Allah as much as Allah loves us? [as if like tak de cinta dunia, cinta manusia, cinta harta benda, cinta kejayaan yang melebihi cinta kepada Allah]

for those who still have the guts to continue reading, then allow me to share a story. an analogy.

there was a man. a very brave man who was obsessed with DOTA. he wanted to find a hidden treasure in a pyramid. it was said that the treasure was very valuable and whoever gets it, he will never get poor and can even support his family until the 7th generation. so, this man had a map and from the map he knew that there will be lots of booby-traps and difficulties lies ahead. nevertheless, for the sake of the hidden treasure, he will do anything, anything for it, no matter what!

so, he went inside the pyramid. with his crews to help him. but then, along the way, there a lot of traps that caused delay of their journey. there were mummies, huge rock rolling over them, poisonous snakes and scorpions, deep holes and etc. before they even get to the treasure, they had to sacrify a lot. they had to leave behind their bag packs which contains foods and drinks. they only manage to save a few which only last for a while and not enough for everyone. there were also people who were left behind and exit the pyramid because they said they cannot bare with the danger. but, that man said, "i don't care! we will get our hands on that treasure!" so, everyone was motivated and continue their journey.

and they had reached the front gate of the place that kept the treasure. they saw the treasure already! it is just on the other side of the gate. but, since the treasure was so valuable, there was a booby-trap. perhaps it was the last one. 

 1. to get to the treasure, only one person can cross the bridge. 

                so, they chose the man.

 2. he need to make a choice, either the treasure or the stuff that he loves the most, online gaming - DOTA. that game was placed beside the treasure. it also comes with a tutor that can teach that man how to be a PRO in DOTA, not a NOOB. [noob is a term in dota that refers to looser]

                so, what was his choice?

if he choose the DOTA, he might not be able to find the treasure again. if he wanted to, he had to encounter the same difficulties as before, as if like repeating the deadly journey.

if he choose the treasure, he might not get the chance to be a PRO which it was his dream since he knew ABC. it was his life time chance! it is DOTA man!!

he was torn between two most valuable stuff in the world [for him la]. he cannot think straight. he was tensed! but beware, he was walking on a very small bridge and had to balance himself. if he lose focus, he'll fall off the brigde and no one will know what happen to him. if he choose the treasure, he'll lose a part of him. and the other way around.

so, he stop. and think.

he chose...

jeng jeng jeng...

the ...

treasure.

he chose the treasure instead of the dota online-gaming. why?

oh my, this post is too long. and i need to go now. seriously. i'll continue in next post, insha-allah tomorrow. 

salam!!!

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.