;( there's no more hope left 4 both of us.

salam a'laik salam sejahtera.

i noe.. i noe!!
today is 23rd!

i noe i noe!
it is JUNE alrite.!

i noe i noe!
2009!

and opcoz...

i noe... it is 4.01 in the morning.

i shud be kroohh kroooohh... rite now. mimpikan tom felton dtg meminang. owh yeah~~ tapi... timekasih pada si nyamuk belang2 yang mencurik sampel darah saya membuatkn sleeping beauty saya menjadi hudus sedikit! ape dia? :( tom felton x jdik minang sekarang. dia suroh belaja dulu. pastu, masuk minang dy. apakah??? kamu mahu makan sebijik penumbuk kurang gule?? hehhe.. ok ok.. saya tipu je nih.

last nyte dpt berite mendukacitakan. merobek hati dan ferasaan. melemaskan saya secara pelahan2. hehe.. wawawahhh~~ saya bersastera lagi la chik!!!

mama: awak taw kan kak long nak laptop dy balek.
saya: WHAT?!! kenape?! [dengan nada keciwa teramat]
mama: dy bengang ngan notebook dy. screen kecik sgt.
saya: wawawawa!! [memeleleh di dalam hati].




dush dush dush!! hatiku dipaku. bongek ko mr laptop. saket la pandai. dah la paku karat. apekah mahu saya gol cepat? we had been together2 for almost3 months. nex week aniversary kite. ini kamu buat kat saya? time kaseh lah!

kamu kekasih sejati saya la mr laptop! kenape ada dusta di antara kita? saya ingt kamu dah breakup lame dah ngan cik kaklong. rupe2nye... smpai hati kamu!!! pergi la kat beliau semula! ini kali terakhir2 last last sekali saya dating dengan kamu. read my lips... KITE PUTUS!!! IT'S OVER FOR BOTH OF US.

agak menjengkelkan bukan??!! biarlah.. x suke kemerepekan saya? oh~~ jgn la menyusahkan diri anda membaca. pergi tido ato bace buku lagi baek. ataw tepon tom felton suroh dy tulis surat cinta bg kat saya. ape lah saya meghapu ini? DIAM.

emosi:sedih dan berduka lara.
sebab:dimadukan oleh mr laptop tnpa disedari.
keputusan: pergi lah kamu mr laptop! saya carik lain! ape susah! nnti puan noraini akan tulun saya carik mr laptop jaoh lebih gantang bangat dari kamu!
p/s: malam td dpt nengok INTAN episod last. terharu2 sbb dlm masa 3 tahon, inilah satu2nye episod yang saya dpt tengok endingnye... owh dokter rado... tibe2 lak... okeh smbong tido. mr laptop.! saya sumbat kamu dlm beg. duduk situ diam2 smpai cik kaklong yang cun lagi menarik tuh balek umah. sekali lagik.. bile la cik kaklong nak bwk balek encik bakalabgipar?? dy bace ini blog... pasti.. saya kematian.

a day b4 tomorrow

the sunrise was beautiful. it indicates the begining of the day.

and i'm gonna start a new chapter.

the old ones? keep it in a safety box.

no one cud take it away unless i left the box opened.

salam...

the time has come for me to be a better person with less karat di otak. apakah yang akan terjadi pada tuan otak lepas ini? i think kene upah tukang urut otak la sbb akan selalu cramp nnti. fuh~ this is goin to be my 167th post. wow! byk nye kemerepekan saya sepanjang holiday ini! kehebatan tahap melampau. ok... enough with the perahsantan.

this also cud be the shortest entry. tuan otak nak bgtaw byk mende. but encik tgn cm dah x beperasaan nak melayan kerenah tuan otak. this song i dedicated to all my adorable blog readers. read this sengal blog may be caused u guys a brain damage. wahahah... ok. doakan kesejahteraan dan kebahagian saya di you-know-where. plz.. plz...

and i go...

~~ma'assalamah~~

encik perasaan sudah kembali, tetapi saya pula yang akan pergi.

assalamualaikum salam sejahtera.

hari ini... AHAD.
esok... ISNIN.
lepas tuh?? SELASA!

owh yeah. encik 23rdJune2009 akan tiba menjemputku untuk berdating di you-noe-where. adakah saya excited sudah? ok ok.. semakin terasa la kot keterujaan. ececeh.. poyos lak.

ok ok... ade gak ar feeling2 nak smbong study nih. dah kembali normal setelah hampir seminggu lebih saya menjoin kelab abnormal. hahaha... encik perasaan sudah kembali menemani saya.

dan saya pada pukul 1.50 am ini, tibe2 terasa emotional gile2 bile jejaka ke2 terhemsem dan terkacak dalam idop saya meluahkan ferasaannya pada saya. oh~ saya cair... saya terharu... saya termeleleh...

abgkiki: mimi gie kolej bile hah?
saya : selase depan.
abgkiki: ooo...
saya : weyh abg. nnti temankan mimi kemas beg. x de feeling nak tido ar malam nih.
abgkiki: ala... x yah kemas ar. x yah pegi.
saya : amboi... ko taw x orang dah busan dok umah nih.
abgkiki: nnti kiki nak tido atas kaki sape?
saya : *pandang dengan penuh tande tanyer*
abgkiki: nnti x de org nak carik pasal lg dah. boring la camni!
saya : *mula terasa sebak di hati tp terus diam n tgk tv*
abgkiki: kalau jalan2 kiki nak pegang tangan sape?
saya : *owh.. semakinmakin tersebaksebak... sbb mmg abgkiki akan pegang tgn saya kalau gie jalan2*
abgkiki: cite intan pulak, saya nak temankan sape tgk tv?
saya : *betambah kesebakan saya di tahap melampau!!*
abgkiki: senang2 belah mimi jadi 2 la! separoh tinggal kat umah. kan senang.

saya masih mengkontrol macho dengan cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak meleleh di hadapannya. abgkiki! but still. i have to go. why did u wait untill last minute to tell me all these? there's only a day or two left for me here. now u r telling me these?!!! do u wanna a penumbuk sampai lebam pipi again?!! well, cant blame him. after all, he is a guy and mr puberty is waiting for him just around the corner. hahahha.. but, he always be my little abgkiki.

if only i can cut myself into half, i'll do it just for u . but i cant. again i'll miss the chance to watch him transform into a hot guy who goin to be taller than me and more gudlooking than me. beseri had stole my two years with him. and now, you-noe-where going to do the same cruel thing to me! why owh why?!

brother, you are annoying.

but you brightened up my life with ur smiles.

brother, you messed up my littleroom.

but you help me to wash the huge unser car.

brother, you made me get scolded by mother.

but you never yell back at me when i did.

brother, you took away my snacks.

but you make me smile by just listening to your laughter.

brother, you embarassed me infront of others.

but you are there when others left.

brother, you always lost in our arguement.

but actually, you let me win.

brother, you WILL NEVER hear this come out from my mouth

but the truth is i love you dearly.

i'm leaving alrite. but kite jaoh 40 menet je...

siblings are the best. siblings are super powerful! they are my siblings! no matter where i am, just say my name when u need me. and i'll be there. [ok ok.. saya tipu je yang nih]. hahhaha... if you have annoying siblings and always wish for them to disappear forever, think twice b4 u make that wish. u'll regret it sumday. love them, enjoy bossing them, care for them, and mostly never ever let them feel they had lost a sister or a brother just becoz you guys dont live under the same roof anymore...

be by their sides while u still have the chance

salam a'laik salam sejahtera salam muhibbah salam perpaduan salam sayang and ofcoz NOsalamMaut ok!! [terasa keseronokan bg macam2 salam]

yesterday, i went out with jiha, lel, faradin n mazni. hwever i had to leave them early to catch the train. [huh~ x mo rebut2.. nnti mcm tin sadin]. in the train, the seats faced each other. but i was so busy with my hp, saya dengan dunia saya shj. orang lain tolong jgn ganggu saya dengan hp saya plz. hehehe. i dont even care to have a glimpse anywhere or at anyone.

then, dah smpai stesen serdang. dengan sepenuh kudrat dan sepantas mama saya memecut kereta bile loceng skolah da nak bunyi, saya blah dari tren tersebut without looking anywhere but down where my legs were walking.

suddenly,

dia: hey miss!!!
saya: *buat bodo la. saya aimi ok. bukan miss. nnti x pasal2 buat fall water face lak*
dia: HEY MISS WITH THE HP!!
saya: *terasa ooo... so tgk ar sape la suare merdu tuh*

OMG!!!! my eyes stopped blinking, my heart pumped rapidly, my mouth ternganga.

it was ERIC LIM!!!! remember him? ok ok... i made an entry about him last month. haha... he still remember me? no wonder i heard "ticking" sound in the train. yeah. it was his tasbih lorh... then, we had a lil chat while waiting for the rapid KL T417. wahahah.. tetibe rase cam winter sonata lak. bongek la!

his mother was sick. very sick according to him la. dats why he had to be by her side. it cud be her last chance to lay her eyes on her one n only son. he said, eventhough they are not on the same "path" anymore, but she loved him the most like she always did. and of coz he adores her too. well~~ duh~~, this is his mother we are talking about. dia skip kuliah semate2 nak jumpe mak dy. his mother is everything since his father passed away a few years ago. now she lived with his sister.

he reminded me not to derhaka to my parents especially my mother. x cium bau syurga ok!!! syurga di bwh telapak kaki ibu. kalu derhaka, dpt penerajang syurga baru taw! hehehe.

dia: x nak sambong belajar ke?
saya: *ape ko ingat aku nih pemalas ke?? x nak study!! kawen teros?? pale hot ko*
saya: alhamdulillah saya dapat kolej mara banting... medic.
dia: excellent. future dokter la nih!! nnti saya sakit, miss bg check up free.
saya: okeh, no cash! sign only... use ur credit card laaa!! haha
dia: haahha.. just be a good doctor ok. and serve the country and our Ad-Deen. n sabar byk2.
saya: insya-allah...

END

i was thinking what cikgu zamri told us while he was driving us to kangar. "jadi specialist yang dapat menuju ke arah fardu kifayah". so, ape la saya nak jadik? pakar sakit puan? pakar kanak2? pakar tulang? pakar psikologi? pakar kulit? pakar bedah? aduhai... i'll think about it later. later u said???! hey, aimi! this is ur future ok!!! ye laa.. nnti sya tnyer la... orang2 yang makan garam lagi awal dari saya.

AGE...

never decrease in numbers but continue to increase till out last breath.

reminded us what had we contribute to others until today.

told us that there's not much time left.

forced us to act the way we shud be.

never turn back.

provides us with cute wrinkles. hehehe.

determine whether we can watch that particular movies.

the older we get, the wiser we shud be.

didnt determine who shud respect who coz everyone shud respect one another.

taught us to be grateful to live that long.

what ever ur age is, love it... care for it... fill it with laughters, loves, compassionate, experiences, family, friends, n opcoz plz... no smoking.! the old people have lots of stories to tell. just like my atok. [love u atok]. their story actually made us wiser than our own age. coz we will think about their stories b4 we act. be by their sides while they are still here. dont send them to the rumah orang kurang muda. i hope i wont do such thing to my bonda n ayahanda. insya-allah...

last word. perhaps?

salam assalamualaikum salam sejahtera.

never realise it but it had been half a year since i've been holding the i'm-not-a-student-anymore title. throughout the outstretched period, which i consider the longest day of rest in one's life [kalah cuti besalin.. ok i said this for the 2nd time] many things happened. gud stuff, bad stuff... doesnt really matter actually. they were all like crayons that made my holidays colourful.

there just left another 3 days. yup not even half of the week left for me to prepare myself. physically and mentally. ok... mostly mentally. becoz i think the mr spidey had created lots of webs inside my head. and i dont think mr. spidey gonna like it when i'm gonna do my spring clean! sorry mr. spidy. i need my big brain back. plz.. owh plzzz....hehehe.

preparations? don even go there... i don wanna talk about it.

i'm goin to kmb? yeah, kmb. kolej mara banting... 40 minutes away from home. but why i didnt felt the excitement. not even a YAHOO-aimi-is-goin-to-kmb-owh-YEAH-OWH-YEAH....! hurm... just like b4 i went to beseri. hahaha.... those good old days. err. not that i'm old ok! huh~~ i'm starting to reminisce again!!

i must refrain myself from doin that again. hey, hemsem!! look forward okeh! there are lots of new things you gotta learn. people, environment, foods, activities, PEOPLE... [ok.. i stated 'people' twice]. huh~~ i'm not the one you can called errm... friendly-faced person. surely not kind a person who goin to be the first to start a verbalization. owh man... i gotta change, rite? my sahabat advocated me NOT to make "koXpuasHatiNganAkuKe???!!!" face. hahhaa... so, aimi... face off. smile ok! senyum smpai telinge. and stay away from using bad words... becoz... u hate bad words rite??

notes:

BAD WORDS... hurm... [actually, i hate writting these words, make me feel not-clean hahha.. get some soap!]

pergi mamp*s la [hek elleh,,, penat taw x doa tiap2 hari untuk umo panjang.]

bod*h [oiyok... bajet pandai sgt la! kalu einstein yang ckp... ade la logiknye]

lemb*b [skali dpt parkinson baru taw!!!]

bab* [hey, x nmpak ke? dah rabun? human ok... human!! or atleat gune la swine ke... cam sedap gak ar dgr.. tp jgn la gune]

huhu~~ these are only the primary.. u noe.. first stage??! haha... don even dare to get any upgrades in this case. u'll feel good about urself be saying these to others. but ever consider about others' feelings?

can i find another sahabat just like her? well duh~~ no ofcoz. even i'll find one, but she'll be herself and not like my petite sahabat. hehehe... she had created a new dimension for me. and i love living in it. especially when she's around. but.... we are on a separate path now. but, still. "aku sayang ko la! cuti2 datang umah aku! aku masakkan best2".

urhg! am i actually ready for all this?! gotta be a nerd again? or atleast the skema aimi again. oiyok.... book worm? book freak? stop stop stop stop stop!!! bongek ko! just enjoy ur life la! go with the flow. just jgn buat bende kureng pandai and bende2 yang melanggar syarak.

ok ok.. even i'm not even 10% ready for this battle... i noe... friends are the to help me win this combat. get my army uniform ready. celoreng2.... santek... jom pegi perang!!! and never turn back untill victory is ours. we are the champion... ooo we are the champion... just plzz.. jejaka kacak!! dah saya nyatakan dlm entry sebelum ini, dan sekali lagi saya ingtkan, tolonglah jgn jumpe saya atau bagi saya jumpe anda!! nahas saya nnti. saya mahu pas bloodshed IB nih!!! hehehhe...

thats enough la. my heart stops pumping everytime i wrote the word IB or KMB. owh no,.. there it goes again. it stops... i'm dead...i'm dead...i'm dead...

kids vs grown ups

salam a'laik salam sejahtera.

seronok kalu kite layan budak2 becakap. sbb kite x akan dpt predict ape yang bakal ditanye and ape bakal dijawap.

this is a conversation between a 10-year-old and me.

kina: mimi, kan best kalau sume bende nih free. kalau dah besar, kina nak jadi raja satu dunia, kina nak buat semua bende free.
saya: owh yeah? abeh tuh nnti sume barang kat istana kina pon org buleh amek free2 la.
kina: mane boleh! tu barang orang!
saya: dah kate sume bende free. barang2 kina pon consider free la gak.
kina: betul gak eh... x pe. kina ade bodigad [bodyguard].
saya: bagus laa.. tapi gaji bodigad kina byr x?
kina: buat pe? kan free.. sume bende kina nak buat free!!!
saya: weyh... x de bende akan free la. nak gie public toilet pon kene bayar taw x!!!
kina: eh.. x boleh.. nanti bodigad tuh pulak amek barang2 kina.
saya: so, kina kena jage sendiri la istana kina tuh!!!
kina: malas laaa. kalau sume free kan mimi... kina nak amek sume barang kat kedai. mesti best kan?
saya: mmg la best. tapi x ke nnti penuh kat rumah nih. pastu, korang masing2 berebut.
kina: asal pulak?
saya: dah free!! mesti la sume nak gak.
kina: dah kata free, amek la sendiri kat kedai.
saya: ooo.. betul gak..

*sebelum saya bertambah fenin dalan conversation ni, saya terpakse mengalah.




kids... they are precious, arent they? enjoy them while they are still kids. bcoz when they are old enough, they will hv their own life. and they will demand for their own space. their own world.

kids, we do stuff together.
kids, we had a fight and 2 minutes later.. it was like nothing had happened.
kids, we fell down the bicycle but we still never give up untill we can ride it without our parents supervisson more than 10 seconds.
kids, we never talk bad about one another.
kids, we did sumthing wrong... but the adults said, "huh~~ kids..."
kids, we cried but there will always be sum1 who will blow the sadness away by telling us that it was nothing. actually, they were lying just to make us happy.

grown ups, i do my own stuff.
grown ups, "i hate u! dont ever talk to me.. EVER!!!"
grown ups, i don wat to live anymore!! i wanna die!! there's no any hope left for me in this world!
grown ups, "dont get so close to him/her.. u'll be a freak too.... blablabla"
grown ups, "why are u soo dumb? this is just a simple thing! cant u even do it rite??"
grown ups, they lied to me just to make sure that their happiness aint ruined by me.

but not all kids have that kind of living. and not all grown ups live in that life. but i still believe that kids are more understanding than grown ups. eventhough they noe nothing, but their hearts are pure. does the "neverland" in the peter pan story really do exist?? every1 will stay kids forever!!

however, i dont wan to be a kid for my entire life. i wanna grow old and have wrinkles, own family, a car, mansion!!! a chopper[a big bike... i want it soo badly eventhough i am forbidden to get near it. i can still dream rite.. ] and.. may be... a funeral. ahaks...

mysweetestnightingale

salam a'laik.

saya rasa saya sudah jatuh cinta sama aizat punyer suare.
hurm... it is 1.32 am alrite.

hahaha...

sesi berangan cam org gile.

"aizat oo aizat.. bile la kamu nak nyanyi kan saya 1 lagu best smbil maen gitar?? plz..plz..."

betape bongeknye permintaan saya ini.

sudah mule obses dengan sape2 yang ade gitar.

sbb saya punyer x de lagik.

x pe... saya akan mengikuti jejak langkah syudud.. MENABUNG!!!

menabung amalam mulia

hahahah...

semakin obses

ini bukan kehendak nih... ini satu keperluan!!!

ces.. tamak habola hiperbola la ko nih aimi.

enun salah seorang yang bertuah...

dia janjikan saya 1 lagu. kan enun!!!!
abeh la enun... saya mula obses dengan kamu.

jaga2

heheheh..

mistake rulez!!!

salam a'laik salam sejahtera.

ok... thanx to diba. i'm using on9 thesaurus rite now. but still a beginner. any grammar mistakes or wat so ever... i'm sorry. but actually i enjoy doin everything wrongly especially for the first time. that is how i can manage to get the job straighten up. -love u so much diba-

when i stared the blinking stars up high in the upper atmosphere, i was very overwhelmed with what i have had. thank you Allah the Most Merciful for everything. especially for the false steps i took. i'm not mortified to profess about this. not to brag by any means... but actually i am delighted to state every single mistakes that i had done in my life. hahaha... but the list is going to be unstoppable. hehehe...

human race cannot run from causing troubles to one another and even to themselves. but that is what placed us on top of the food chain. as we grow older, we'll realise that mistakes are suppose to teach us the meaningful lessons in life. they are the signs telling us that we are going to be better humane [characterized by kindness, mercy, or compassion] for the up-and-coming days.

even a mistake smells like i'm-in-a-hot-water.

even a trouble only going to hurt everyone.

even a false move can bring sorrow.

even a slip of tounge can break a fragile heart.

even a misinterpretation can cost us pain.

even a simple "shut up" can be the reason for the end of a beautiful friendship.

however, bare in your minds...

mistakes make us wiser.

troubles teach us to be stronger.

false moves remind us of being self-conscious.

slip of tounge warns us to think first before we put into words.

misinterpretation brought us the thought of never-make-a-judjement-b4-you-know-exactly-what-is-going-on.

a simple "shut up" can be the reason for the understanding of two souls.

to all the adorable people out there,

who accept me the way i am, i'm sorry if i somehow hurt your feelings. forgive me for the wrong doings i have done. teach me to be a better person. be honest with me whenever i ask anything even it may cost me a heart break. and please dont hit me with anything eventhough i did a mistake, bcoz... it HURTS.. PHYSICALLY. hahahah...

menanti kepulangan mereka dengan penuh harapan

salam 'alaik n salam sejahtera.

today. i'm alone. again... after two full weeks with them, suddenly it was over. haiyok. betape cepat mase berlalu. now, they are back to school. homeworks... oldfriends... books... studies... teachers... and blablabla. me? here... by myself.

they actually know the existance of this blog. but cam x kesah pon nak bace. hahaha.. not interesting enough? bagus! jgn la bace. kene sepak karang. FOC.. hehehe..


wat to say? wat to do? haiyok... seriusly!! i'm speechless, feelingless, careless and all the LESS thingy. hehehe..

anis. she's annoying. and i mean it. A N N O Y I N G!!! but sumhow, she's the only one who can make me smile when i'm totally angry with her. how did she do it? she can transform my muke-macam-the-rock-tgh-mengamuk to muke-macam-budak-kecik-dpt-cokolat. annoying but that what makes me love her.

abgkiki. he's the most lovable one. the only person who i call 'abang' dengan hati yang rela dan iklas! even he is 13, but still act like a 3-year-old when i'm around. hahaha... never get mad at me even i often carik pasal with him. take his pillow, bossing him around, jentik telinge, renjis air kat muke time dy tgh men komputer, yell at him, and etc. but still he's my bestest friend in the house.

kina. the energetic one. even she has asthma, she an athlet ok! won lots of medal. she's made up tulang besi urat dawai. no meat!!! hahaha... yesterday, kina made a homemade tabung. in order to penuhkan tabung, she pretended to be a pengemis infront of my room begged for MONEY! no ordinary money... dia mahu duit kertas ok! duit syiling x laku ye!!!

aida. last but not least. i think she's more mature than kina. my mom said that, "ha! dalam ramai2 beranak eda paling senang". and she was like... bangge gile.... hahaha... she'll do wat ever i told her to. if and only if she's in a good mo0d.
ok i love them all! huh~~ habis la skolah cepat! temankan orang kat umah nih... boring la dok ngan bibik !!!
wat else to write? i'm dying here.... huah huah huah... laughing? yeah rite...

bayang-bayang*

salam assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

kenape kite nilai seseorang dari segi

PARAS RUPA

PAKAIAN

PERGAULAN

TINDAKAN

sbb itu ape yang kita nampak kan?

sbb itu ape yang mate kite bagitau kat otak kite kan?

sbb itu ape yang otak kite nak kite nampak dengan mata kita kan?

sbb itu ape yang kita dengar kan?

sbb itu ape yang telinga kita bagitau kat otak kita kan?

sbb itu ape yang otak kkita nak dengar dengan telinga kita kan?

kadang2, terasa mungkin seronok lagi kalau jadi bayang2 drpd jadi tuan empunye bayang2.

bayang2 x ada paras rupa.
bayang2 x perlu kesah nak pakai baju warna n fesyen ape, cume warna hitam aje.
bayang2 x bercakap.
bayang2 x rasa sakit klau orang lain pijak dia.
bayang2 x perlu bertindak, cume ikut je ape tuan dy buat.
bayang2 x perlu ada perasaan.
bayang2 x akan pernah sakit hati.
bayang2 x akan pernah sakitkan hati orang lain.

tapi...

bayang2 x kekal lama.
bayang2 perlukan sumber cahaya sentiasa.
bayang2 x mampu berdikari.
bayang2 hilang bile tuan berdiri di atas bayang2 lebih besar.
bayang2 x mampu bahagiakan sesiapa.
bayang2 pentigkan diri sendiri shj.
bayang2 penakut!

jangan jadi bayang2. jadi diri sendiri llagi best. walaopun kepahitan dan kesengsaraan melebihi tahap yang kite mampu hadapi, kite kena ingt... bahawa sesungguhnya Allah x akan memberi dugaan yang x mampu dihadapi oleh hamba-Nya. sesungguhnye Dia Maha Bijaksana lagi Maha Mengetahui.

kita dikurniakan akal fikiran yang super power untuk kita menghadapi hari2 yang penuh pancaroba dan dugaan. use it wisely. segelintir manusia tidak akan berhenti untuk mengata, mengkritik, menghina, mencerca, mengherdik, mengganggu emosi, dan menindas. *na'uzubillahiminzaalik*. akal fikiran yang power mampu menepis segala tomahan yang dilemparkan. bak kata seseorang yang amat saya kagumi, "SO WHAT?!!!" biarlah mereka katakan apa yang terbuku di hati, asalkan kita tidak tergolong dari golongan yang rugi.

berkata2, menulis, menasihati....

itu mmg lebih senang dari melakukan.

"cakap senang laaa.. cube ko try buat!!! susah taw dak!!"

saya sendiri masih berusaha mengajar diri saya untuk menjadi seorang yang i'll-do-what-i-said. masih dalam pembikinan dan insya-allah pada saya sudah saya lihat sedikit... sedikit...x byk.. sedikit sahaja kemajuan. semoga sedkit itu mampu saya lebarkan sayapnya menjadi BANYAK GILE!! insya-allah....

i'm so glad i found u!

salam 'alaik.

hoh~~ lame da yerp x berkarya agung di sini. heheh...
senantiasa on9. tapi penyakit lame kembali menyerang kot.
kehilangan interest nak merapu buat seketika.

ape2 pon!!!

saya tujukan lagu nih khas buat mereka2 yang senantiasa membuat saya tersengih macam kerang busuk.

sesape yang terperasaan, bagus la yerp!! saya x mau sebut secara specific sbb nnti pihak2 terbabit akan hantar mesej2 kat saya and bg saya ayat2 terharu2 yang akan buat hingus saya meleleh2 x dpt nak kontrol.

aish.. ilang kekacakan saya nnti.

ha.. bagik teddy bear kat sebelah tu senyap dulu. baru buleh menghayati... wahaha...

HEY KAMU ORANG!!

TIME KASEH BYK2

SBB SAYA RASA SAYA DAH KEMBALI HEMSEM

hahahaha

kalau saya huduh balek macam muke monster x kacak tgh kelaparan,

tolon la nyanyikan saya lagu best2 lagi yerk.

kalau x berkesan gak bg je penampar japunz kat muke saya nih, bagi kesedaran sivik serba sedikit.

^_^ [saya senym iklas nih] ^_^

najihah

salam...

what u give, u'll get back.

so, time kasih kpd najihaH kerana member saya award juga..

NJHA

dia menarik? ya opcoz!!! kalu x menarik, camne saya tertarik nak tulis bnde2 menarik pasal jiha nih. heehh ok ok...

jiha nih seorang yang cool. selama saya kawan gan dya x pernah kot dgr dy marah2 tahap melampau.

jiha nih seorang yang hemsem lagi menarik hati. pasti laa... 'sudah menarik hati siapa?? hehehe'.

jiha ini seorang yang manis lagi kelakar. saya suka bile dy tgh kalut sbb mmg comel gile time tuh.

jiha nih seornag yang ada senyuman yang manis. saya suka tgk dy senyum menayangkan giginya yang tersusun rapi tanpa perlu memakai braces.

jiha adalah kawan saya smpai mati... menarikkan??? insya-allah kalau ade jodoh... smpai lepas mati pon kite kawan lagi. hehehe...

PIECES OF me

i miss my smiles, my poyos, my ngekngok n my sengal faces...

bile la wajah2 hemsem itu akan kembali menconteng muka saya?

kalau saya ade crayon super magic, saya suroh kina conteng muke saya dengan wajah2 yang gumbira+poyo+sengal.

tolonglah, saya mahu hemsem kembali.

kalah cuti bersalin!

salam salam salam....

sesungguhnya saya mmg dah x de keje nak dilakukan. sehari kalu la boleh dan saya tahu saya berkemampuan, saya akan buat entry lebih dari sepuluh tau! betapa free nya masa saya di saat dan ketika ini.

kepada yang membaca blog saya yang serba kekurangan ini, mungkin anda akan berkata macam2. memberi komen2 yang saya x buleh nak dgr sbb anda x rakaM pastu send kat saya. ataupun anda membacanye sambil panggil kawan2 anda yang lain dan gelakkan taabahasa saya yang tunggang tebalik ini. tapi... suka hati anda laa.... saya nak cakap terima kasih sbb sudi melawat... dan membaca dengan sepenuh rase pelik serta mungkin rasa nak baling selipar kayu je kat saya. hehehe...



hurm... TAKE THE FIRST STEP IN FAITH.
oh~~ saya ini amatlah lemah dalam TAKE THE 1ST STEP IN ANYTHING!!! ok... saya mengaku. saya penakut dan paranoid. ntah brape byk kali dah saya ckp saya nih paranoid. x nak ckp lagi dah la. karang x buleh nak transform jadik seorang yang KURANG KEPARANOIDAN pulak karang. ok.. saya x cakap lagi perkataan P*******.

mungkin sebab saya telah mengalami satu peristiwa yang terasa ingin gelak golek2 atas rumput hijau bile saya teringat balik, saya sukar... SUKAR ye.. bukan x boleh.. just SUKAR untuk ada so-called-faith dekat sesiapa mahupun apa2. dan penyakit ini semakin kronik setelah saya becuti melampau. kerana... saya mempunyai masa terluang dan berkuantiti dan may be lansung x berkualiti dengan encik tv saya. macam2 drama, gile byk cerita kesah benar, cerita2 bersiri, dan of coz cartoons telah mempengaruhi cara saya berpikiran.
sbb saya dah buleh predict ape akan jadik at the end of the story. sbb pe? sbb astro slalu ulang cerite yang SAMA sahaja sepanjang saya bercuti tahap tergedik lebih nih. dan pengajaran2 cerita tersebut saya ingt dan melekat kat pale hotak saya. so, macam takot pada diri saya yang super duper power ni terjadik ape2 yang x saya hingin dan seterusnya membuat saya yang keciwa dan terseksa di penghujung rancangan... saya berhati dengan sebaiknya. tapi saya rase laaa mungkin TERLALU BERHATI2.
sehinggakan at the end... mmg saya yang rase kurang bahagia seperti baru je kene campak kat dalam gaung tanpa dibekalkan payung terjun. oiyok!!
so, saya tarok gmbar tuh bukan shj sbb saya tertarik dengan muke haiwan yang kepelikan tuh, tapi juga sebab perkataan2 yang disambung menjadi satu ayat yang sedikit sebanyak menyembuhkan penyakit kronik yang saya panggil penyakit kalau-cuti-lebih-6-bulan-jangan-berdating-dengan-tv-tiap2-hari. HEHE....
TAKE THE FIRST STEP IN FAITH
YOU DONT HV TO SEE THE WHOLE STAIRCASE,
JUST TAKE THE FIRST STEP.

everyone is going to get hurt. physically, mentally, emotionally. dont worry... u r not alone. so, about the karma thing i said before, wat goes around comes around. and now, what ever i do,did,done... i'm gonna be responsible for it. even, it gonna cost me a fortune or cost me a heart break.
so, everyone!!! be strong. be brave. be powerfull!!! dare to take the risk but plzz... consider about other people around u first. dont be a fool who thinks he/she had acheive his/her happiness but dont realise that he/she had ruined others'.
okeh... saya kelihatan sungguh happy lagi bergumbira ketika ini. sbb di sinilah, i found who i really am. 'di sini' merujuk pada MRSM BESERI yang best itu. those days.... really2 missing them. apa akan jadik... jadilah. saya akan buleh terima dengan hati terbuka. camne saya tahu? sbb saya pernah menerima sesuatu tragedi berdarah dengan hati yang tenang. malangnya orang lain ingt saya semakin parah dan bertindak di luar pemikiran yang stabil. haish.. orang lain... orang lain.... ha! dan saya sekarang malas da nak kesah ape orang akan cakap pasal saya. mereka berhak berkata apa2 dan berpikiran apa2. lagipon, tangan saya x cukup untuk tutup mulut mereka. mungkin satu hari saya x tutup tapi tampar. oh... tidak... jgn paksa diri... dan saya juga kurang yakin dengan kebersihan mulut2 mereka itu. hehehe...
so ape2 hal, saya perlu yakin dan percaya bahawa saya tidak keseorangan.... keluarga, sahabat, rakan2 blog... sentiasa mensaport saya.
kesedihan datang dan pergi. kegembiraan bertandang dan pergi. tapi kesetiaan tidak akan berbelah bahagi. seperti saya setia kepada bonda ayahanda saya dan juga malaysia. wawasan 2020.... saya berumor.... 29 tahun... ye yeap... saya masih setia kepada negara malaysia yang saya cintai. agama, bangsa, dan negara... tidak lupe juga saya akan sentiasa setia menonton cerite naruto secara on9 walaupun terpakse menunggu lame untuk loading dan membaca manga sampai habis.

cerita anime ini mmg bagus. sila lah tonton. sgt bagus dan best.

berdrama di pagi hari...

salam.

i opened my eyes, i try to see but i'm blinded by the white light. i cant remember how, i cant remember why... i'm lying here tonite. and i cant stand the pain. and i cant make it go away. no, i cant stand the pain... how could this happened to me? i made my mistakes, got no where to run! the nite goes on as i'm fading away... i'm sick of this life... I JUST WANNA SCREAM!!! how could this happened to me??? everbody's screaming and i try to make a sound, but no1 hears me. i'm slipping off the edge, hanging by a thread. I WANNA START THIS OVER AGAIN. so i try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered and i cant explain what happened... and i cant erase the thing that i've done... no i cant...

hadoi... benci ooo... kenape tibe otak saya berfikiran macam ini?? bukankah sudah kembali kuat super duper hebat semalam??? oiyok!! ok ok... saya dah kembali kuat... butul.. x perlu tongkat ali ataw kacip fatimah pon... x perlu.

just that, mata saya... sangat laaaa SEPET. susah nak bukak!!! aduhai... terasa tegang sungguh urat2 saraf kat bahagian kepale nih... bongek ko saraf! hehehhe... apakah saya akan lulus medical check up pada hari ini???

saya: ma, nak gie kol brape arh?
bonda: uish!! mate tuh ape sal?
saya: errr... ngantok ar kot...
bonda: apsal sepet semacam. are u sick?
saya: aih.. tidak laaa..
bonda: karang x past medical checkup baru padan muka awak!

oh bonda saya sgt la baik lagi penyayang. tapi kadang2 beliau suka buat saya cuak terlebih2... x pe.. sbb tu dia sayang saya. and of coz the other way around.

owh, mata!!! kembali lah pulih seperti sedia kala... tolong lah.. plz....
drama omputeh tadi hanyalah untuk mengada2... heheheh... ok bukan... drama omputeh tuh la yang terbang2 kat otak saya...terjadi pada diri saya.

tibe2 mama saya berkata2...

bonda: awak taw x? anak pakcik rosli pon dapat kmb jugak! [dengan nada excited]
***note: pakcik rosli ialah jiran saya. anak2 beliau sume2 bijak2 gile.
saya: yek? wahaha.. bagus2... balek uma senang nnti.. buleh tompang2..
bonda: byk la ko tompang2...
saya: dia under ape?
bonda: jpa... dapat kat UK.

tibe2 je saya tersentak. kenapa saya tersentak??!!!! otak ngeng saaya teringat kat satu bende. woooossSSshhhHHH!!! sekilas terlintas... ape bende? tentang 'dia'. if he got uk instead of **, mungkin dia pon dapat kat kmb kan?. oish.. oiyok!! oraghh!!! kenape... saya x terniat pon nak berpikiran tentang dia... kenapa kena datang sendirik. ntah ape cerita dia sekarang. well, saya harap dia gumbira jgn smpai x hengat dunia and has stop from using the 'not-so-clean' words so frequently. haha, really2 breaks my heart when he does it.

huh~~~it doesnt matter ape akan jadik, tapi jangan la sampai putus persahabatan. pernah saya pike, lagi senang lost contact. tuka number. lari jaoh2. pindah negara lain. menyamar jadik pengemis jalanan. buat plastik surgery. ok ok.. x de la smpai nak bedah2... but if i do did those things... smpai bile saya kne jadik pelarian? lari dari diri saya sndiri? x ke bongek?

secara fizikalnya mungkin saya kuat berbuat demikian. tapi secara emotionalnya mampu kah hati saya hadapi PENAFIAN persoalan bahawa saya menantikan jawapan dia y sejujurnye SEJAK DULU LAGI??!!!

TAPI AIMI DIYANA BINTI AHMAD ROKIS merangkap SUPERMAN aka SUPARJOEngang.... jgn la tersentak! mata saya dah terlalu sepet untuk tersentak... alangkah baiknya kalau terhantuk pengsan tros!!! tapi mata saya tetap kembali sepet sebentar. urgh!! curst u sweating eyeballs!!!

tibe2 lagi, saya teringat dekat janji saya. x pe! saya ikat janji saya kuat2 sekuat saya yang gagah perkasa nih.

saya akan tunggu sampai encik 23JUN20o9 tiba. kalau zero x de pape jawapan, alamat nye zero laaa.... ADA SAYA KESAH?!!! mungkin siket la kesah... heh? banyak2 laaa... aiseyh... akan tetapi saya teruskan idup saya dengan senyuman kambing yang menawan hati dan perasaaan saya sedirik. hehehe... 8 tahon.. ooo jaoh lagik... tapi kawan saya kate 10 lagi elok...

huh~~ till that day... i'll keep praying.

ape2 pon kata putus saya lepas nih, saya musti percaya kan diri saya.
aimi hensem,
ur desicion is the best for u, dun ever regret it.

obat hati

salam 'alaik...

apa yang saya perlukan hanyalah satu konversation yang best lagi menarik hati serta menggumbirakan perasaan.

HEY, KAMU!!

u r always there 4 me.

listening to all my problem yang mengade2 gedik nih.

meskipun saya tepon kamu dlm keadaan hingus meleleh2, kamu tetap dengar.

kamu suka buat mata saya yang berpeluh2 nih kembali sepet sbb tersengih2.

sabar menunggu saya ade mood untuk berpotpetpotpet.

gelakkan saya tapi sebenarnya kamu simpati kat saya.

cube mencari ayat terbaik untuk dikatakan hanye sbb x nak buat saya terasa dan kemudian merajok cam minah gediks.

kamu turut sedih kalau dengar suara saya yang macam 'the rock' nih time saya sedih.

kamu x putus asa nak bagi saya kuat bile saya down.

oleh itu, ingin saya katakan...

SAYA SUDAH KEMBALI KUAT.

super duper power incredible fantastic AIMI sudah sembuh.

no more fenin2...

no more x leh tido...

no more x de selera...

no more malas nak gie toilet...

no more sedih x tentu pasal...

sbb saya tahu, dia akan sentiasa bersama2 saya.

SAYA SAYANG KAMU, CHIK!

p/s: chik, saya tahu saya dah janji nak gie makan, solat, and tros tido lepas letak tepon tadi.. tapi saya macam lega tahap mokhsya sekarang and saya gumbira sbb saya ada kamu.

anugerah from diba dan ainun

1. Copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog kamu.

2. Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik mengenai pemberi award ini :

DIBA

cubemate saya yang tercinta di blok B

suka bake

amat cemerlang di dapur

baru pakai braces dis year

dia sayang saya.. hehee.

AINUN

dia sayang saya.

menawan

buat saya gelak sampai cramp otot pipi

sporting dan slumber

akan satu kolej dengan saya

3.Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya :

x bace novel cintan, carik pasal, sayang buku gile2, hate smokers, anti-BADWORDS, pakai retainer, bercita2 untuk tinggi melebihi 1.58m, sensitif terlebih, susah nak tido kalau melantak mocha ice-blended, kumpul macam2 bende.

4.kamu perlu memilih 5 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka :

i. zoul-si adek zoul yang comel kini berada di kuantan dengan bahagianya.

ii. najiha-si future dentist dan kini sedang berbunga2 hatinya

iii.ball- rakan pssstttsss ... pssstttsss saya dan pendorong saya nak terus semangat!

iv.syud- teman sejati saya berskodeng. aiyak... hehe... dan sumber inspirasi saya.

v. tidak ada sesiapa

day 4. finale.

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!

...DAY 4...

breakfast terakhir di kampung melele mexico.

ketika ini saya sedang bertarung nyawa di 'waterROOM'.

hadoi.. tensi2... terlepas bus...

menunggu bas bagaikan menanti tom felton datang meminang saya. hahah...

bas kitorang sebelah2... ke KL dan ke TAIPING.

masing2 selamat tiba ke pangkuan keluarga tercinta.

tapi.. segala memori akan terpahat kukuh kat hati dan sanubari serta otak.

x kira di mana kitorang berdiri, duduk, tido... 2 tahun di beseri adalah 2 tahun yang amat bermakna.

meskipun, dulu2 mase zaman muda2 kat beseri,

kitorang seperti monyet kena rasuk sbb nak balek rumah sangat2...

tapi hakikatnye,

beseri itulah rumah kami.

fakta tu x kami sedari,

sehingga beseri berada melebihi dua marhalah jaoh daripada kami.

kami akan kembali...

insya-allah

dengan segulung ijazah untuk menjadi hadiah buat para pendidik yang kami sayangi.

doakan perjalanan hidup kami

sesungguhnya x mungkin kami akan menjadi siapa kami pada hari ini, sekiranya tidak dibimbing dan diasuh oleh insan2 di

MAKTAB RENDAH SAINS MARA BESERI, PERLIS.

mrsm beseri is the best, the best is mrsm beseri.

day 3... x nak balek laaa!!!!

day THREE.

meninggalkan beseri di waktu pagi. saya macam x de feelin nak tulis pasal arie nih.

sbb pe?? sbb kitorang nak meniggalkan beseri!!! waaa.. so, gmbar je la ek...

kami blah dari sickbay. selang 5 langkah, kami stop dan membuat pose yang agak kerek.

cikgu nordin dan cikgu farijah yang amat cool.

solat dulu kat mane ntah. pusat dakwah negeri kedah . i think.

waiting.. waiting.. waiting... 4 the bus and eating.

still waiting... hahhaa

the 'H' problem

salam 'alaik.

aku kuat! aku kuat! aku kuat! aku kuat! aku kuat!

benda yang sering saya katakan pada diri saya. huh~~ berkata2 mmg senang. tapi nak buat tuh sememangnya memerlukan kehebatan tahap melampau.

emosi agak kurang stabil. bukan kerana pms. tapi kerana hati. ye HATI, HATI, HATI.

siapa yang x pernah hadapi masalah hati hah? tipu laa... kalu ye, huh~ bukan manusia la tuh tapi robot. ish ish ish...

it is easy to fall for sum1. but it is hard to overcome that stupid feeling. i'm 18. and ofcoz i have that so-called-stupid-feeling. i am not abnormal.

i believe in karma. what goes around comes around.

like i stated, i'm ONLY 18. getting a place in KMB to do my IB is only my first step to be a doctor. 2 years in doin diploma IB. and another 5-6 years till i get the DR. title. where? it doesnt matter. as long as i can get one.

it is 7-8 years rite? huh~ a long period. and i'm going to meet lotsa kind of people.

if i say i had found the rite guy NOW, will it last forever?

can i promised him dat i wont meet other guy?
or
can he promised me that he wont meet other girl?

does he really2 meant what he said?
he's not my father. he's not my relatives.
he just a person who i noe for a few years.

yes, i'm a paranoid.

i don wanna hurt anyone. and mostly i dont wanna hurt him.
coz, if i do... one day.. one fine day... sum1 is gonna hurt me badly too.

i don wanna say the 'L' word to many guys in a life time.
i wanna say the 'L' word only ONCE!![i'm praying for it]
so, i'll keep the 'L' word for the rite moment.
even, it gonna takes 8 years.
and i donno if he could wait for that long.

i'm hurting myself . i noe. but it is better than i hurt sum1 else.
i did not cried bcoz of jelezsy like i did b4 [wat a stupid thing to do], but i cried becoz i donno how long my heart can handle this situation. how many times more i have to tell myself that aku kuat!?

none of us noe what is gonna be like in the future. no one can predict future. only ALLAH knows.

i leave it all to Allah. He knows the best for me. what ever had been written for me in the luh mahfuz, i'll accept my fate.

but it wont hurt anyone if i pray for our own individual happiness eventhough we are not on the same path.

i have my princip. and i'm gonna stick to it!!! yes!! i'm gonna stick to it. insya-allah.

owh~~ 23rd jun 20o9!! cepat laa smpai... i wanna get my head n my thought n my focus in my studies... and perhaps keep this feeling in a security box and keep the combination numbers away for 8 years.

but the question is can i?

[day2] full-time beserianZ

salam alaik.

DAY 2.

wah wahwah!! pagi2 sume cam debar abeh ar nak bergerak balek beseri. beg da siap packed. makan pon sudah. thanx to mak ndak mimi yang menjaga kami dengan penuh kasih sayang. so, lepas dah bersalam2, kami pon teruskan perjuangan ke bus stop yang terletak kire2 hmpir 50-60 langkah dari uma mimi.

waaa.. saya terharu ngan ain. sbb pe?? hehe... dy bawak beg tarik. so, dengan baik hati dan ferasaannya dy offer saya tompang beg saya kat beg dy. pastu, dy yang tarik. wargh!!! seronok ooo orang tolong bwkkan beg yang super power berat tuh. heheh.. saayang kamu ain!! muah muah!!


rumah mak ndak mimi di KAMPUNG MELELE MEXICO!!! hehehe...

setelah perjalanan hampir sejam setengah dalam bus. dan semestinya wajib pasti!! saya tido dalam perjalanan, kitorang sampai kat persimpangan nak masok ke MRSM BESERI yan tercinta!! sume cam seronok nak mati. sengih2 cam kerang busuk pon ade. aduhai...

dan mimi berkata dengan loghat utaranya,

"mesti satg kita sampai, cikgu zamri tungu kita dengan moto dia kat depan pagaq"

and guess wat??!! MULUT MIMI MASIN OOO!! smpai2 kitorang kat depan pintu gerbang nih, cikgu zamri sedang menunggang motosikalnya ke pondok pakgad. aiyok!! kalau lah cikgu tuh feremfuan dah lame saya peluk cikgu sbb rindu tahap gaban. hehehe.. tapi x buleh... x buleh... batas masih ada...


lepas chit chat serba ramah dengan cikgu, kitorang berangkat ke sick bay. yop!! tempat penginapan kitorang kat beseri. and atas dasar kasih sayang yang teramat kepada kitorang [ok.. saya perasan yee]...atas sbb cikgu zamri mmg baik hati dan ferasaan... kitorang dapat stay kat sickbay for free. owh.. sayang cikgu.

dan sepanjang perjalanan kitorang ke sick bay, budak2 junior cam pelik je. ok.. nih mostly junior form4 dan mereka x kenal la kitorang. so wat?? ada kami kesah?? heheh... teruskan perjalanan ke sickbay dengan keseronokan bergmbar berlatar belakangkan suasana beseri di awal pagi.


tgk2.. baik x ain?? dy tolong bwk beg saya!!!!

lepas tuh kami ke blok pentadbiran dan beramah mesra dengan ayahanda pengetua. waa.. beliau semakin emsem since the last time i saw him which was last year!! sirius mmgsemakin hemsem. x caye. gi tgk snirik!!! hehe.. macam2 nasihat beliaw bagi. especially untok kitorang yang nak further IB nih. bertuah sungguh batch kitorang dpt pengetua cam beliau.

then, kitorang merayau2 x de perasaan malu di bilek guru. start dari jabatan sains. fuh~~ kitorang borak sakan ngan cikgu2. seronok oo sbb mereka2 masih ingt saya. heheh... ha! ni aimi... huhu berbunge2 hati saya.

nasihat dan peringatan mmg x leh dipisahkan dalam perbualan antara pelajar dengan gurunya. kitorang pon diingatkan jgn dok study gile2 sangat smpai lupe nak pike sal KAWIN. alahai.. lemah kepale lutut saya dgr. rase macam saya nih masih muda untuk pike sal mende2 tuh. x pe laa.. kitorang ikot flow... biarlah Allah yang menentukan bile, bagaimana, dan yang penting SIAPA jodoh kitorang. hhehehe...

yang paling sya x leh lupe ialah saya berperangai amat kebudak2an dan keanak2an bile nampak cikgu nordin masok staffroom. dengan sepenuh hati dan ferasaan saya melambai2 tanpa menghiraukan orang di sekeliling. dan the best part was, cikgu pon lambai2 balek kat saya serupe cam saya. hahah.. cikgu sgt sporting siot!!! owh.. cikgu.. kami sayang cikgu.

cikgu farijah, cikgu suriati, cikgu sabariah, cikgu bad, cikgu hazlin, cikgu nordin, ustaz abu hasan, cikgu hasma, cikgu rosma, cikgu salam, cikgu raihan, teacher rai, cikgu saliza, cikgu zaida, cikgu zamri, cikgu salim, cikgu k, cikgu kasuma, cikgu azila dan sume cikgu2...

WE LOVE U ALL SO BADLY.

bole2 cikgu salam wat lawak kate beliau dah kawin bulan 3. ish ish ish.. kitorang pon caye ar... cikgu cikgu.. pape hal, kalu kawin butul2... ajak arr!!!

kemudian, pukol 12 cikgu2 ade meeting. so, kami blah tok merayau kat sekitar maktab. aduhai.. sesungguhnya saya dan mereka amat merindui maktab tahap melampau. lepas nih mungkin lagi setahun ataw 2 tahun ataw bertahun2 baru saya buleh ke beseri lagik. di mana2 kitorang akan bergambar. even kat tgh2 dunia.

terasa kehebatan amek gmbar nih. hahah...

then, lepas dah solat dan rehat2. kitorang mengisi perut yang sememangnye dibiarkan kosong di rumah cikgu zamri. wawawa!! cikgu masak sup gear box!! fuh~~ sgt sedap. dan yang best nye. kitorang prepare lunch same2. potong sayur. basuh pinggan. buat air. hehhe... mereka la buat. saya tunggu makan je. ish ish ish.. teruk tol...

petang nye, kitorang dah PENAT!! SO ,lepak2 dengan juniors kat blok b. ha! ikram datang. borak2 ngan dak klas o [saya,ain,chik]. pastu dy bwk jalan2 nek kete. kelilig maktab je... harapan nak bwk kuar jalan2. hehehe.. dah lewat lorr....

malam menjelang. surau menjadi tumpuan. tazkirah cingu zamri berkumandang. hati kami tenang.

tapi seperti biasa, di surau akan terasa amat nak tido. hahha... strategik. so, saya mintak diba urutkan. pastu saya urutkan syud. macam keretapi la gak. yang saya agak sedihnye... tradisi mengurut kawan yang tgh ngantuk time tazkirah atawpun ape2 program mcam dah x de. kalu kawan2 tertido, lantak ko laa... hurm.... so, ble kitorang stat urut2 tuh, saya ade la gak nmpak juniors2 yang buat bnde same kat kawan2 mereka. bagus2..

lepas dah abeh tazkirah, kami ke luar maktab. alaa.. konon2 macam fly laa.. hahah... tujuan?? mencari makan. setelah kenyang. kembali ke maktab dan dengan seronoknya menuju ke court basketball. team A[syud,enun,diba] lawan team B[mimi,saya,chik]. hahaha.. main2 waktu malam amat la seronok. rasenye dah lame saya x rase sebegitu seronok dan begitu hidup sejak kali terakhir saya bergelak ketawa dengan mereka kat maktab.

dah penat, kami balek cube. eh eh .. bukan2... balek sickbay. plan nak tido tros. tapi batalkan niat coz excited nk jumpe dak2 form5. waa.. konon2 macam MINI SPKG laa.. turunkan ilmu kat mereka. ape yang boleh ditolong kitrg tolon. so, adik2 ku!! wat spm leklok!! musti lagi hebat dari kitorang yerp!!! all the best!!