tolonglah YAKIN [anywhere, Allah is there.]

before IRP during the evening. subhanallah...

salam a'laikum.

hoh~~ fuh~~ one week left till IB Final. meaning that 3 weeks left till the day i walk out MCB and never turn back again. [pergh... gile exaggerate!] hurm... alhamdulillah. He still give me the chance to almost completing this madness.

staring at the sky. observing the planes. listeing to the noise they made. influenced me to think about our placements.

sometimes, things happen not the way we had planned. might be not the way we wanted. but they did right? for example, you are planning to further your studies in somewhere in Europe, but you end up getting a conditional offer letter from university in Middle East. [huh~~ apakah???!!] yeah, it was 'apakah'. nevertheless, you must always expect the unexpected. [macam the biggest looser pulak].

imagine this, you are craving for the tarbiyah in Europe. but He sends you to somewhere that... how to put it in words...? let say, He gives you the chance to create your own biah solehah instead of entering the already-established-biah-solehah in Europe. well, it would be pretty much a heart-breaking news, wouldn't it? especially when you realise that you are not among the chosen one that He decided upon to be the al-a'diyat in Europe. not having the chance of meeting former akak-akak usrah and sit in a circle. being reminded of the Mighty Allah. the courage and the fight of Rasulullah and His companions. the beauty of Islam.

sounds pathetic right? [gile mengharap nak gie europe sebab nak tarbiyah kat sane.]

why did I said PATHETIC?

simply because prophet Muhammad pbuh once said that,

"if Allah wants to do good to a person, He makes him comprehend the religion [Islam] and of course is attained by learning. "

[bukhari]

she who cried because did not manage to end up in Europe was, i dont know... pathetic may be? well, anywhere in the universe... no matter you are... in europe, asia, middle east, saturn... there is only one God. ONE GOD. and He is ALLAH. 

and if He wants to do good to you, then it will not be a problem for you or for your tarbiyah even if you are in Middle east more specifically bahrain, RSCI Bahrain. where there is no MCB seniors and also might not be any malaysian students and more dissapointing, no usrah. but, if you do believe in Allah and have faith in Him, no matter where you end up... Allah will help you by making you understand the true meaning of Islam, and of course you must work for it, LEARN. even if you have to start from the beginning. well, as long as you realise that Allah is always there for you, setting a new biah solehah in Bahrain insha-allah.... akan dipermudahkan. ^_^ have you forgotten? Allah kan ada...

brothers and sisters of islam,

we must learn to understand that we chose this path not because of the beauty of ukhuwah, the bombastic programmes, the unforgetable experiences, the mouth-watering foods... but we choose this path because of Allah. we want to have His blessings. we want to learn how to love Allah as much as He loves us. we want to meet Him in Jannah! and all those highlighted sentences are only bonus that He gives us as a token of appreciation of fighting for the sake of our syahadah. we are HAMBA, do realise that. and we have to obey our almighty Allah.

might be the universities that Allah had set for us is far away from our former murabbi, like kakak usrah or naqibah. like, matilah aku nanti tak ade akak usrah... jatuh la iman... sape nak bakar semangat aku nanti? mati laaa mati laaa... [brape kali dah sebut mati?] but ever we realise that we have the greatest murabbi ever in every second of our lives... lupe ke??? hish...

the greatest murabbi is Allah. 

our Rabb, right?

don't ever forget that, insha-allah.

p/s: i'm one of the 11 people who are going to RCSI Bahrain. alhamdulillah. hopefully, dear readers... your prayers will always be with us, for us to be strong and have a healthy 'eeman' in that new area.

Alhamdulillah

*** this post is mainly made for myself, as a reminder for me. perhaps anyone out there is facing the same dilemma... hopefully, this do much help. insha-Allah.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

almost forever.

belang-belang lobang-lobang

salam a'laikum...
now it is the mock IB exam week.
everytime it is exam, I miss her so much.
semoga Allah sentiasa merahmatinya.
al-fatihah...

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

the sky is blue

salam a'laikum

this was yesterday.

i don't know what else to say besides all praises to Allah because of everything that he had given to me.

this new hobby really makes me feel...

aiyak, dont know how to describe it.

but having this obsession towards the clouds, sky and everything up there,

made me think,

when my time will come?

may be tomorrow?

am i ready?

my answer is, not yet.

[oh man, i'm in trouble]

no matter where i stand,

what i say,

who i meet,

they all have a something in common.

they take place beneath the blue sky.

every morning i can't wait to close the door behind me and go to class,

as along the journey to the class,

i have the chance to stare at the sky, white cotton clouds

and thank Him for giving me another day to say,

"Subhanallah"

this is in KMB. seriously.

one thing to pounder,

He gives us everything we NEED,

and knows what we WANT,

but, 

what did we do,

as a return?

final IB exam is near,

we pray solat hajat every night,

we work and study smart,

we asked Allah to help us,

we begged Allah to guide us.

but,

Allah asked us to perform our prayers EARLY five times a day,

kite buat ke?

Allah had showed us the rightful path,

tapi kenapa kita pilih jalan hitam?

Allah give us the title caliphs and the receivers of the quran,

ada kita memakmurkan muka bumi ni dengan kalimah Allah?

Allah gives us day and night for us to work and sleep respectively,

kenapa kite stay up study bagai nak gile tapi qiam boleh malas?

most of us choose to be "biasa-biasa aja".

they asked,

"kenapa nak kena ajak orang buat kebaikan? diri sendiri baik sudah la. jadi orang biasa-biasa sahaja"

yes, be a normal human being.

no need to do anything else but enjoy life to the fullest!

owh yeah...

want to be one? just proceed.

just a reminder, would we be the "normal" during the yaumulHisab?

hurm...

would we be the normal one?

[asking myself]

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

dont lose it.

salam a'laikum.

i was "dissecting" the biology IB guide, then this song came across my playlist. somehow, even this song already in the air for a long time, and i had listened to it like thousand times, but just now... it struck me deeply inside. "Always Be There" by Maher Zain.

Allahu Akbar [x8]

If you ask me about love
And what i know about it
My answer would be
It's everything about Allah
The pure love, to our souls
The creator of you and me
The heavens and the whole universe
The one that made us whole and free
The guardian of His true believers
So when the time gets hard
There's no way to turn
As He promised He will always be there
To bless us with His love and His mercy
Cuz as He promised He will always be there
He's always watching us, guiding us
And He knows what's in our little hearts
So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
Cuz as He promised He will always be there

He brings us out from the darkness into the light
Subhanallah capable of everything
Shouldn't never feel afraid of anything
As long as we follow His guidance all the way
Through our short time we have in this life
Soon it will all be over
And we'll be in His heaven and we'll all be fine
So when the time gets hard
There's no way to turn
As He promised He will always be there
To bless us with His love and His mercy
Cuz as He promised He will always be there
He's always watching us, guiding us
And He knows what's in our little hearts
So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
Cuz As He promised He will always be there

Allahu Akbar [x16]

life could be hard. ok fine, life is hard.
until there will be a time when we don't know what to do except weeping.
crying.
but, do we had forgotten His promise?
He will be there for us.
He always there for us.
we are the one who always neglect Him in our daily life.

i was touched by the phrase,

As long as we follow His guidance all the way
Through our short time we have in this life
Soon it will all be over
And we'll be in His heaven and we'll all be fine

i can barely control myself when i heard this.
life is difficult.
but it will be over soon enough.
and everything will be fine.
IF
we follow His guidance all the time.

sometimes i am suffocating with all dun-Ya matters.
but let us think,
which one is the most important.
DUNYA or AKHIRAT?

i'll tell ya later. got to go. salam!!!
The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

short n precise 3

lensa kamera tidak pula tertarik untuk menyimpan kenangan manusia, tetapi memamcing diriku untuk menggenggam keyakinan terhadap keEsaan Tuhan, Rabbal a'lameen. insha-allah

salam a'laikum.

Dunia diciptakan untuk Manusia, dan manusia diciptakan untuk Akhirat.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

teruskan;

salam a'laikum.

semua orang sihat kah?

ke semua dah exhausted?

semput-semput tak cukup oksigen?

sabar ye,

"Wahai manusia! Sesungguhnya kamu telah bekerja keras menuju Tuhanmu. maka kamu akan menemui-Nya." 

[al-insyiqaq, 84:6]

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

i need.

ingin sahaja aku terbang mencapai kepulan kapas putih.

menggenggamnya erat tidak pula terdetik untuk melepaskan.

namun, begitu sukar dan mustahil untuk awan bebas itu menjadi milik diri.

sekali ku berjaya sentuh, angin bayu laut menghembusnya lari.

aku coba, tidak aku putus harap.

kini, pancaran kilat menjadi tembok pemisah.

aku menantikan perginya awan kumulonimbus dari kaki langit

agar dapat kumencari awan yang hilang.

sampai kini, aku masih berharap.

menggantung seribu pengharapan kepada kuasa Tuhan.

yang bisa berkuasa membelah langit

dan memberikan aku awan terindah

kerna Dialah sebaik-baik Pemberi _____.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

pahit getir kehidupan 'di sana'

location: Lanai, Putrajaya.

salam alaikum.

tatkala melihat langit, terbayang-bayangkan indahnya syurga yang mana tiap-tiap hari Allah hias untuk hamba-hamba-Nya yang beriman. [semoga kita berada dalam golongan tersebut. amin ya rabbal a'lameen]. terngiang-ngiag janji-janji Allah di telinga ini di saat melihat kepulan-kepulan awan bergerak mengikut perintah-Nya.^_^

kita sering bicara soal syurga Allah kan? pernahkah kita terdetik untk memikirkan tentang neraka?

"apabila mereka dilemparkan ke dalamnya meraka mendengar suara nereka yang mengerikan, sedang neraka itu membara, hampir meledak kerana MARAH. Setiap kali ada sekumpulan [orang-orang kafir] dilemparkan ke dalamnya, penjaga-penjaga [neraka itu] bertanya kepada mereka, "Apakah belum pernah ada orang yang datang memberi peringatan kepadamu [di dunia]?"

[al-mulk,67:7-8]

kenapa neraka itu MARAH?

neraka itu juga adalah makhluk Allah. oleh itu, apabila mereka-mereka yang ingkar kepada Penciptanya dilemparkan ke dalamnya, maka HANGIN la neraka itu. betul tak?

terbaca satu majalah ini. betul-betul kencang hati ini berdegup tatkala perkataan 'neraka' itu diulang berkali-kali. ditambah lagi dengan huraian-huraian yang serba dahsat! 

"sesungguhnya di sisi Kami ada belenggu-belenggu yang berat dan neraka yang  MENYALA-NYALA. dan makanan yang menyumbat di kerongkong dan azab yang pedih."

[al-muzammil,73:12-13]

apakah yang dimaksudkan dengan "makanan yang meyumbat di kerongkong"? 

Iman Ahli Basrah iaitu al-Hasan bin Abi Hasan al-Basri tatkala teringatkan ayat Allah ini, tiga hari beliau tidak lalu makan kerana terbayangkan keadaan ahli neraka yang tercekik-cekik apabila makan makanan di neraka. makanan tersebut tak boleh turun ke perut, tapi tidak boleh dimuntahkan. fuh~~ dahsat sungguh.

sekiranya kamu diberi timah cair yang sangat panas dan buah yang asalnya dari sebuah pokok yang tumbuh dari dalam [inti] neraka, kamu nak makan tak? 

oh tidak. saya pun tak mahu.

tapi,

rasulullah ada bersabda,

"akan dicampakkan perasaan lapar kepada ahli neraka. maka ia [rasa lapar itu] menyamai azab seksa yang sedang mereka rasai."

[h.r. al-Tirmizi]

dekat neraka nanti, by hook or by crook... ahlinya akan makan juga dua jenis "hidangan" yang saya nyatakan tadi. tapi... hidangan tersebut bukanlah untuk menghilangkan lapar dan dahaga, malah adalah bentuk satu seksaan dalaman tubuh mereka.

Imam al-Qurtubi dalam Tafsirnya berkata,

"keadaan orang kafir di dalam neraka seperti keadaan  orang yang terus menerus mengalami sakaratulmaut tanpa henti."

meraka tak akan pernah merasai nikmat seronoknya syurga sepertimana tidak akan pernah ahli syurga merasai keperitan hidup dalam neraka.

terdapat sepohon pokok dalam neraka. tidak terkata betapa panasnya neraka dengan api yang menyala-nyala, pokok tersebut tidak terbakar. huh?~! hebat betul! hal ini demikian kerana pokok itu sendiri asalnya adalah dari dalam neraka dan ia juga adalah sejenis api. saya terfikir satu idiom english, if you fight fire with fire, you will get a bigger fire."  [taking it literally] erk! bayangkan kat dalam neraka nanti, hanya api sahaja yang ada. jadi, apabila api bertemu api.... [terhenti jari saya menaip. betapa dahsat keadaan neraka itu nanti.] 

tapi sehebat mana kita bayangkan neraka itu, tak sama pun dengan neraka yang asal ciptaan Allah. sebab itu perkara ghaib. jangan bayang over-over... ok, kembali kepada pokok tersebut. nama pokok itu ialah pokok buah zaqqum.

ciri-cirinnya: 

1. buahnya seperti kepala-kepala syaitan [tajam]
2. seperti minyak panas.
3. rasulullah bersabda, "andai setitis daripada buah zaqqum terjatuh ke laut dunia, nescaya musnah semua kehidupan yang terdapat di dalamnya. maka, bayangkanlah bagaimana jika seseorang memakannya?" [h.r al-tirmizi].
4. membuat si pemakannya terasa dahaga sangat. dan tiada minuman lain di neraka melainkan timar cair yang sangat panas. sehingga terputus-putus usus perut mereka.
5. akar pokok tersebut menjalar dari dasar neraka jahanam [the bottommost neraka].
6. cabang-cabangnya menyebar hingga ke semua level dalam neraka.

alhamdulillah, semua informasi di atas saya baca dari majalah solusi. bukan rekaan semata-mata. dan selepas membaca bahagian terakhir artikel tersebut, betul-betul terasa hentakan yang sangat kuat. dan sangat malu pada diri sendiri.

"demi Allah hati-hati kita bukan seperti mereka [ulama salaf as-soleh]. apabila membaca ayat-ayat yang menceritakan azab neraka, kita masih boleh makan dengan lahapnya. kita masih boleh tertawa dan bersenda gurau."

-umar m noor-

berdoalah agar kita mati dalam keadaan islam. mungkin sekarang ini kita masih lagi berpegang kepada syahadah kita, tapi kita tidak tahu apakah keadaan kita tatkala sakaratul maut datang menjemput, masih islam lagi kah kita?

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.