c o m i c

salam a'laikum.

...................-_-........................

anyway,

do you love to read comics? manga?

naruto? detective conan? dan detective school?

yeah, i read those.

but not to the extend where everything else is neglected. no no no... [sikit,sikit sudaaa]

well, i found this awesome cool website for manga-addicts.

you might want to look at it, it makes you laugh and it makes you think, and it makes you realise that you are just His Servant.

this could be a nice one to start with.

in the name of Allah

but, don't get to indulge with it ok? be moderate. [huh... reminder reminder....]

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

musleems, are meant to be the people of reflection

salam a'laikum.

being immobalize give me the opportunity to search for hundreds of motivational videos.
that explains the reason why recently every post had atleast one video in it.
-_-

well, i stand corrected.

everything happens for a solid reason.

^_^

this is one of them.

in this video might not be any actions or anything.

i didn't watch this video because of the beautiful coulds oppss clouds. [yeah, i'm obsess with coulds opss again.. i mean cLouds *jazakillah bella ^_^]

please, just spend 9 minutes or so to listen.

"muslims, are meant to be the people of reflection"

abdullah bin mas'ud people of badr 313ali bin abi talib umar al-khattab abu dzar fatimah khadijah abu bakar as-siddiq salahaddin al-ayubi 

"we remember these people but non of us aspires to be like them"

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

short n precise 4

salam a'laikum.

kawaii ne??!

hurm... comel memang comel. no doubt about it.

sekarang, jom tengok video ini pula.

itulah... mereka ibarat kain putih kan?

nabi muhammad pernah pesan,

"Setiap anak dilahirkan dalam keadaan suci, maka kedua-dua ibu bapalah yang menjadikannya Yahudi, Nasrani atau Majusi."

[h.r Bukhari]

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

penilaian

salam a'laikum.

memang kadang-kadang ada sahaja rasa nak cabut paru-paru ini keluar.

tekak ini kalau boleh nak rendam dalam ais bagi sejuk.

ubat batuk itu nak buang dalam singki tak nak minum. [tak sedap]

katil itu nak lipat kecik2 supaya diri ni tidak gedik nak sakit sepanjang hari.

laptop ini pula... haish.... peneman setia.

betullah. kalau badan kita tak sihat, memang macam-macam benda kita tak boleh buat. huh~~ sedih bukan? 

sahabat-sahabatku berkata,

"ini kafarah dosa."

"try manfaatkan masa kat rumah tu"

"makan obat." [ini paling payah, blerrgghh!!]

"sabar ye. Allah nak bagi awak rehat. banyakkan beristighfar dan berzikir."

aku bukannya nak mengharapkan simpati. jauh sekali nak mengambil perhatian semua orang. 

"weeyyh.... tengok laaa tengok laa aku. aku sakit ni weeehhh... tengok laaa..."

[desperate sangat dah ke?]

bukan...

mula-mula memang aku rasa sakit ini beban yang amat sangat. bukan setakat beban kat diri aku sahaja. tapi turut membebankan orang lain. aseef. 

namun, setelah mendapat hadiah berupa "flower horn"... aku sedar. look everything in a positive way. itu aku cakap pada diri ini tatkala ingin membangkang ketentuan Ilahi. [tak senohoh!] 

ingin membaca... puuurrftt.. kepala ini sudah kena block.

ingin mengarang...[huhu~~~akhowat sekalian... ingat janji dengan ustaz salam?] apatah lagi...

ingin membuat macam-macam... namun, takdir mendahului aku.

kecut perut ini tatkala teringat pada hadis arba'in imam nawawi. hadis ke-4.

"... Demi Allah, Dzat yang tiada tuhan selain Dia, sesungguhnya setiap kalian ada yang beamal dengan amalan penghuni syurga hingga jarak antara dia dengan syurga hanya sehasta. lalu suratan takdir mendahuluinya sehingga dia beramal dengan amalan ahli neraka, maka ia pun masuk neraka. 

ada juga kalian yang beamal dengan amalan penghuni neraka hingga jarak antara dia dengan neraka hanya sehasta. lalu suratan takdir mendahuluinya sehingga dia beramal dengan amalan ahli syurga, maka ia pun masuk syurga. "

[h.r. Bukhari dan Muslim]

huh~~ di manakah aku?

untuk membuat pekerjaan fizikal mungkin tidak aku mampu. kini sehingga immune system aku sudah kembali hebat, aku dapat merasakan bahawa Dia sedang memberikan aku masa untuk muhasabah kembali apa yang telah aku lakukan selama ini. niatku untuk apa? matlamatku adakah redha Allah semata-mata? atau ingin mencari kemasyhuran dunia.

bagi aku, muhasabah diri adalah lebih perit daripada kesakitan yang aku alami sekarang ini. menilai kembali tindak-tanduk, butir-butir kata, pemikiran ala-ala plato... entah la... 

huh~~~ tapi aku berharap... sakit yang kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku.

terlantar bukan bermakna mampu buat bodoh sahaja, tapi itulah masa terbaik untuk menilai kembali diri sendiri, dan kemudia bangkit menjadi hambanya yang kenal erti kehambaan. insha-allah...

aseef, post kali ini ditulis di bawah pengaruh dadah yang telah mendapat kelulusan kementerian kesihatan. sebarang kesilapan amat dikesali.

"masa yang ada niThe one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

gedegang?!!

salam a'laikum.

sehebat mana pon seorang manusia itu merancang, walaupun telah membuat beberapa backup plans... namun, sekiranya tidak mendapat keizinan daripada-Nya... tidak juga akan berjaya.

ya, hati ini sedih. mengenangkan beberapa perkara yang terpaksa aku menarik diri di saat-saat akhir disebabkan immune system yang kurang hebat. dan mungkin telah menyebabkan kesulitan kepada beberapa pihak. apakah kerna dosa aku, perjalanan aku dibantutkan oleh-Nya?

di sini, sekali lagi... entah yang ke berapa kali... aku belajar untuk bersangka baik dengan-Nya. meskipun diri ini kadang kala merasa penat dan muak dengan pengajaran yang sama [berulang kali], namun Dia tidak pernah muak daripada menyelamat aku. dari terus berada dalam kesesatan.

"argh! ape salah aku?!"

GEDEGAAANGGGG!!!

kepala terhantuk dinding yang terang tang tang ada kat depan mata.

itu lah, hamba tak kenal erti bersyukur! ini mmg balasan yang wajar aku terima. bergema kata-kata murabbiku, seakan-akan aku dapat melihatnya tatkala kepala masih lagi sakit.

"selagi mana kita tidak lulus ujian Allah tu, selagi itu kita akan diuji dengan ujian yang sama. sampailah kita pass with flying colours!!!"

diri ini perlu diperbaiki.  

"apa lagi?!"

di saat manusia merasakan dirinya sudah cukup, di situlah puncanya kealpaannya daripada ingat kepada Tuhan.

GEDEGAAANGG!! sekali lagi.

pintu dapur pula menjadi sasaran.

apakah kepala dan hati  ini cukup keras untuk sedar hakikat bahawa...

diri ini perlu diperbaiki!

memetik kata-kata seorang yang amat aku kagumi himmahnya,

"tarbiyah ini bukan macam makan, tapi seperti minum air. kalau makan, lagi kita makan... kita akan rasa kenyang. tapi kalau lagi banyak kita minum air, lagi kita rasa dahaga."

so, lagi kita mencari sinar tarbiyah itu, selagi itu kita akan merasa tidak cukup dan nak lagi!

semoga rasa sakit ini menjadi penghapus dosa.

insha-allah.

tak semestinya apa yang kita rasa terbaik untuk diri kita itu, adalah yang terhabis baik untuk kita. dan juga sebaliknya.

al-baqarah, 2:216

sedangkan Dia lebih mengetahui.

focus on the lyrics during 4.21.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

dah lupe ke? ke tak tahu? hurm...

salam alaikum.

i love this video.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

zaaaap!!!

salam a'laikum.

dipetik daripada sebuah buku.

ketika Tuhan berkata kepadaku

tidakkah kamu malu bermaksiat kepada-Ku?

kamu sembunyikan dosa dari makhluk-Ku

tetapi dengan penuh noda kamu menghadap-Ku.

Tuhan, maafkan aku.

aku terkesima.

mujahadah itu manis.

Tuhan, aku tidak mahu menjadi kering.

salam a'laikum.

dua sahabat berbeza personaliti berbicara. tatkala tarbiyah mempertemukan mereka.

"argh! aku penat la melawan diri sendiri!"

kenapa ni? tak kan la penat sampai macam itu sekali?

"nafsu ni. kalau boleh aku nak buang jauh-jauh! tak de la aku nak buat jahat! [sambil menangis]"

aik? kalu buang nafsu. waaa... nak jadi malaikat nampak... over. kalau tak de nafsu, macam mana nak rasa seronok beribadah? ape yang akan jadi pendorong untuk kita cinta kepada Allah seperti mana Dia cintakan kita?

"....."

awak. saya tahu awak penat. sebab awak tak nampak lagi faedahnya awak lawan nafsu tu.

"...."

erm... mungkin jugak awak penat sebab Allah bukan matlamat utama awak. 

"...."

awak nak berubah sebab orang lain berubah kan? it's ok, for a start. along the way, kita kena selalu perbaharui niat kita.

".... [air mata semakin deras]"

[erk? alamak, aku salah cakap ke nih?] camni la awak, sahabat saya pesan... cuba awak bayangkan mujahadah lawan nafsu tu akan dapat duit. waaa... awak suka duit kan? kan? ok. tak nak bayangkan? no hal... cani pulak. setiap kali awak berjaya lawan nafsu awak especially sikap malas awak nak baca buku fikrah tu, awak reward diri awak. bagi la duit ke, beli eskrem ke, gie jalan-jalan ke, beli stosken baru ke... [asek2 beli je, karang timbul nafsu lain pulak karang. -_-']

"be... betul gak ape ko cakap tu. aku rase, aku je yang beralasan bagai selama ni. aku boleh! aku boleh! aku hebat kerana Allah ada bersama-sama aku!"

ha, kan bagus macam tu. Allah nak uji awak je tu. nak tengok tahap mana awak tahan untuk terus bermujahadah. ingat tafsir surah al-ikhlas?

"allah husSomad?"

yup. Dia tempat meminta segala sesuatu. kalau penat, awak minta kekuatan daripada Allah. kalau awak sedih, awak minta kegembiraan daripada Allah. kalau awak stress, awal minta keampunan dari Allah. sebab mungkin segala musibah yang menimpa kita adalah disebabkan dosa-dosa kita yang lalu.

"thank you, babe. aku rase betul la ape Muadz bin Jabal cakap. sekejap je aku dok ngan ko, aku rase iman aku dah recharge! macam super saiya! naruto pon aku boleh kalahkan. apetah lagi rasengan kakashi."

[-_-'  mule daaa.. dia da mule daaa...] 

"insha-allah. babe, ko tolong aku ye."

insha-allah...

** nak berubah bukan mudah. namun, Allah pasti akan bantu. yang penting, kita harus berkeras dengan diri sendiri. lenturkan nafsu agar nafsu ikut cakap iman kita. bukan iman kita kalah dengan hasutan nafsu. tak mampu nak lawan seorang diri? ^_^ saya faham. saya juga begitu. oleh itu, carilah wasilah.

"wahai orang-orang yang beriman! bertaqwalah kepada Allah dan carilah wasilah [jalan] untuk mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya, dan berjuanglah di jalan-Nya, agar kamu beruntung."

[al-maidah,5:35]

carilah sahabat yang mampu membawa kita kepada cinta Allah. seorang sahabat pernah berkongsi dengan saya,

the prophet pbuh was reportedly asked:  "which of our companions are the best?" he replied: "one whose appearance reminds you of Allah, whose speech increases you in knowledge and whose actions remind you of the Hereafter."

subhanallah.

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

I'm terrorized in my own land And I'm the terrorist

salam a'alaikum.

Look into My Eyes by Outlandish.

Look into my eyes
Tell me what ya see
U don't see a damn thing
Cuz u can't relate to me

U blinded by our differences
My life makes no sense to u
I'm the persecuted one
U the red, white and blue

Each day u wake in tranquility
No fears to cross your eyes
Each day I wake in gratitude
Thankin' God He let me rise

Ya worry 'bout your education
And the bills u have to pay
I worry 'bout my vulnerable life
And if I'll survive another day

Ya biggest fear is getting a ticket
As ya cruise your Cadillac
My fear is that the tank that's just left
Will turn around and come back

Yet do u know the truth of where ya money goes
Do u let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody nobody nobody knows
Some one tell me

Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

See I've known terror for quite some times
57 years so cruel
Terror breathes the air I breathe
It's the check point on my way to school

Terror is the robbery of my land
And the torture of my mother
The imprisonment of my innocent father
The bullet in my baby brother

The bulldozers and the tanks
The gasses and the guns
The bombs that fall outside my door
All due to your funds

You blame me for defending myself
Against the ways of my enemies
I'm terrorized in my own land
And I'm the terrorist

Yet do u know the truth of where ya money goes
Do u let the media deceive your mind
Is this a truth that nobody nobody nobody knows
Some one tell me

Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

American do ya realize
That the taxes that u pay
Feed the forces that traumatize
My every living day

So if I won't be here tomorrow
It's written in my fate
May the future bring a brighter day
The end of our wait

Oh let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

Oh shine a light for every soul
That ain't with us no more
Ohohoh my brothers
Ohohoh my sisters

 The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.

wake up, it is time.

salam a'laikum.

this video speaks for itself.

get it? 

yes, i admit that KMB was a fantasy of da'wah. you can meet up with your usrahmates anywhere. you can have iftar together everynight, if you want to. you can read mushaf al-quran along the way to class, even at the road side. no one will stop you, neither will look at you like you are freaks or weirdos. 

what else? 

you can have usrah jumaat every friday to remind yourself about Allah, with no objection from anyone. you can asked help from dear akhowat without fear of being disapointed. there will always people who look out for you. asking, "how's eman?". every malam jumaat, there is another reminder of Allah during ceramah at surau an-nur.

forget already? 

there were moments when you spent you time to tadabbur a'lam during picnic, either in the morning or during the evening. there were times when people called out for jama'ah prayers and for coolsem.

need i tell you about

the people who are willing to listen to your reminders of Allah and dear Rasulullah and sahabahs' story. the group of circle that keep you awake during usrah. the people that text you to know your condition whenever they realise there's something wrong going on in your heart.

those nikmats, those two years!!! weren't they enough? for you to keep on going, keep on fighting for the sake of ummah? 

TAK CUKUP LAGI KE DENGAN NIKMAT YANG ALLAH BERI?

enough said.

memang la diorang hebat, al-quran turun masa zaman diorang!

the sahabah [radiallahu 'anhuma], they receive the quran... ayah by ayah. but we? we got it in a complete set! what else do we want in order for us to be as HEBAT as sahabah? some of them don't even have the opprtunity to listen to all the wahyus. because they had syaheed. they died for the sake of their syahadah! sumayyah.

memang la diorang hebat, sebab ada rasulullah!

says who? there were mujahideen who never even meet rasulullah pbuh. but still they did da'wah! uwais al-qarni.

those are all EXCUSES! 

i admit, once i said the same things. because i was in the comfort zone. getting input every week. and now. it is time to give the output! just like the placenta. there is only one umbilical vein that supply oxygen, nutrients to the fetus. but there are TWO umbilical arteries that use to transfer the carbon dioxide, waste from the fetus to the mother's blood. the output should be twice as mush the input. this was what the sahabah did. that is why once ISLAM was the WOrRLD ORDER. and it can happen again, if... we worked hard and smart as rasulullah and sahabah did.

NO MORE EXCUSES!

those are for crybabies.

if you dont want to do da'wah, just say so. but don't you want to be among the people who stands us for islam? don't you want to meet Allah in Jannah? don't you want to ask rasulullah personally about his fights for islam in Jannah? 

saya nak jadi orang biasa-biasa sahaja. tak buat dosa. tapi buat banyak amal. tak yah wat dakwah2 ni. ini kerja ustaz ustazah je.

then, you had made your choice. so, in the hereafter, jadilah orang biasa-biasa sahaja. rasulullah and sahabah were not biasa-biasa sahaja. so, dont ever dream of meeting them, if you are biasa-biasa sahaja.

now it is time for us to wake up from our fantasy of da'wah. this is the real world. face it. be brave. now it is the time where our two year of tarbiyah in KMB will be tested. were we really commited to this path, or were we just follow others and do da'wah because this path provide us with people that care about us and this path make our soul alive in KMB. again, this is the real world.. where islam is an outlandish.

let us be Abu Ubaiday ibn al-Jarrah and Mu'adz ibn Jabbal

janji jangan tinggal janji kosong.
janji syahadah kita, harus kite laksanakan!
jangan sampai di akhirat nanti, kita terima buku catatan amalan kita dengan
TANGAN KIRI.
na'uzubillah.

[a BIG reminder for aimirokis]

The one who speaks to the others is speaking to oneself.