behind user passwords we invent

again...

salam a'alaik...

by dawud wharnsby ali
entitled AFRAID TO READ.

about surah ar-ra'd... insya-allah i'll try to post it soon enough. constructing words...

i love the last 2 paragraphs. [sorry sahabat2, cant upload the vid coz internet here dont really as hebat as home's. try search ok. ^_^]

How many words she’s read before, she’s consumed two thousand books or more.
Musty pulp and glue soundproof her tiny room.
She cannot understand why this book in her hand
fascinates her now so much that she’s almost shy to touch.
“Don’t think about the words it’s just a book - paper and ink”
She reaffirms, remind herself, “a book can’t dictate what to think.”
It invites, intrigues her more than others on her shelf
“Is it just another book?” - she sits questioning herself.

Oh Allah, she’s so afraid to read,
the wisdom that’s revealed may burrow in her mind
She’ll be obliged to admit,
She’ll be obliged to submit
But will she be strong enough to live the truth she finds?
Oh Allah, she’s so afraid to read.
The hall light is always on every night that he is gone.
He hears his mother toss in bed when he slips in at dawn.
In the book case by the stair, he can see it sitting there
like a waiting watchful wise-man scolding him with care.
In the morning will they fight about him being out all night?
Will he resent their gift of love and not admit that they are right?
All he wants is to fit in some place, but must he compromise his faith?
He can’t look himself or his parents in the face.
He takes the book upstairs unread and sets it closed next to his head
then counts the prayers he’s missed and lays so hopelessly in bed.

Oh Allah, he’s so afraid to read,
the wisdom that’s revealed may burrow in his mind
He’ll be obliged to admit,
He’ll be obliged to submit
But will he be strong enough to live the truth he finds?
Oh Allah, he’s so afraid to read.

I sent an email to my loved one, just the other day
It’s sad communication has evolved this way.
We use so many words but have so little to relay
as angels scribble down every letter that we say.
All the viral attachments sent and passionate insults we vent
It’s easy to be arrogant behind user passwords we invent.
But on the day the scrolls are laid, with every word and deed displayed,
when we read our accounts, I know, for one, I’ll be afraid.

That day I’ll be so afraid to read,
every harsh word that I’ve spoken - and every time I have lied.
I’ll be obliged to admit,
I’ll be obliged to submit
Will I have strength owning up to each deed I’ve tried to hide?
Oh Allah, I’m so afraid to read.

p/s: test bio tomorrow. insya-allah.... i'll do my best. hurm... some how... mama terhebat di dunia, if you are stalking my blog right now ^_^, just wanna tell you... saya rindu anda! salam!!

inner conflict

salam a'alaik.

"argh!!! G4 x siap lagi! presentation bio, oh my Allah! budget programme.. kenapa mereka x buat awal2?! topic test math+bio this week, dah study ke? [nada perli]... and more ade usrah lagi malam nih?!"

STOP! STOP!! STOP!!!!

what did u just said? repeat please.. the last sentence.

and more ade usrah lagi malam nih?!

how cud you say that?! how cud i said that? did those words just came out unconsiously? but then, i shut my mouth and sat down... istighfar... istighfar... istighfar... ya allah.. betapa senangnya hati kita ini dicucuk oleh s*tan d*rjana bila kita sedang marah+tension+mereng+X INGAT ALLAH!!!!

hurm.. i just simply forget about all those DUNIA stuffs. yeah! only for one hour... please only for one hour, give me the chance to find Allah back. by rembering Allah, our hearts wil find peace. and i need peace. i need ALLAH..

subhanallah, in the meet up... we tadabbur surah ar-Ra'd. tafsir fi zilalilquran... kak yana cudnt make it tonite so we just discussed among our usrah sibs. there, i felt belonged to. i felt my heart is no longer jumping up and down vigorously and trembling with fear and unnatural excitement when i read,

"dan Dia menghamparkan bumi dan menjadikan gunung-ganang dan sungai-sungai di atasnya. dan padanya Dia menjadikan semua buah-buahan berpasang-pasangan; Dia menutupkan malam kepasa siang. Sungguh, pada yang demikian itu terdapat tanda-tanda (kebesaran Allah) bagi orang yang berfikir."
[13:3]

we have Allah. the One who created mankind and this universe!!! stop worrying and seek for Him. He always there for us, but do we ever realise that fact? do we ever feel that He is observing every single thing that we do, did, done, will do??

ayat ke3 surah ar-ra'd, akan saya further explain apa yang kami discusskan based on tafsir zilal, by syed khuttub. but not now, i now my priority. salam sahabat2.

p/s: Allah i need You. yes i really do.

it's a piece of the peace of islam

salam a'alaik.

sahabat2ku,

i don't want to wrote much but i just wanted to share with you guys a song.

by Dawud Warnsby Ali.
entitled 'People of the Boxes'.

There were once some people
Who all saw their lives like empty boxes
They looked around the world
Collecting up the things they liked.

They filled their lives and boxes
With the goodies that they gathered
And they all felt in control
Content and they all felt alright.

They climbed inside their boxes
They settled with their trinkets.
They neither looked nor learned much more
And closed their lids up tight.

Once they fastened up their boxes
They smiled there inside
And they all thought in their darkness
That the world was clear and bright.

But the world is not a box
There’s no lid no doors
No cardboard flaps or locks
And everything in nature
From the clouds to the rocks
Is a piece of the puzzle of the purpose of man
It’s a piece of the peace of Islam.

Along came a wandering wiseman
Whispering such words of truth
He stumbled on these boxes
So separate side by side
He knocked upon the first one saying
Please come out and feel the day
An answer came from deep within
You’re not of us please go away

He approached the second box
And tapped twice on the lid saying
Peace to you inside
Shall I show you a new way
Someone peaked out from a crack and said
You may just have a point
But it’s so comfy in my box
In my box here I will stay

But the world is not a box
There is no lid, no doors
No cardboard flaps of locks
And everything in nature
From the clouds to the rocks
Is the piece of the puzzle of the purpose of man
Is the piece of the peace of Islam

He stood before the final box
A hiding face peaked out to him
And much to his surprise
He said I recognise those eyes
I see you and you see me
Why not come out and be free
Faith and flowers wilt and die
If they are hidden from the sky.

Cause the world is not a box
There is no lid, no doors
No cardboard flaps of locks
And everything in nature
From the clouds to the rocks
Is the piece of the puzzle of the purpose of man
Is the piece of the peace of Islam

Now the centuries lie between
All the prophets and you and I
Civilisations are born and die
Each and everyday
We see good and bad and happy, sad
And mad mistakes we wish we hadn’t made
In our attempt to try and live up to their ways

But if we hide ourselves away
Afraid to grow and learn
We might wake up in the flames
Of the ignorance that burns
And we’ll never be much more
Than only casualties of war

In a struggle we can’t win
If we have no faith to begin
We’ve got to tip the lid
And let some sunlight in

Cause the world is not a box
There is no lid, no doors
No cardboard flaps of locks
And everything in nature
From the clouds to the rocks
Is the piece of the puzzle of the purpose of man
Is the piece of the peace of Islam.

my prayer had been answered A L H A M D U L I L L A H

salam a'alaik.

sometimes the truth can really2 hurt us, right? once, i even thought that it is better to know nothing rather than well-known of something. but, hello reality~~~we have to live with the truth even though we tried to close our ears, shut our eyes, lie to ourselves.

huh~~ my hand is shaking right now. it is the side effect of the nescafe that i just drank? or am i trembling with fear of facing the truth? owh Allah, help me.

but, i just wanted to thank that person for telling me the real truth. [ade ke unreal truth?] hurm... even you did it indirectly. i think i understand what that person trying to let me know. what is the truth? hahaha.. sorry sahabat2, cant tell you. it just a matter of personal business.

for this week, reality haunted me. everyone was like exposing their deepest darkest secret. which i found not really nice or appropriate to be known by ANYONE! but still, i knew. all of them were actually like a big massive gigantic rock being placed on my big head. argh! x best! but still, i tried to act normal infront of others. like nothing had happened. because it is unfair to let others affected by our unstable mood+mind. they deserve to live their days without my 'x best' thingy.

apart from being burdened, i felt blessed. i really2 praise to Allah for letting me know this final truth. the truth that actually breaks my fragile heart [fuyo0! ^_^] but at the same time heals the wounds that my soul had suffered for the past 2 years. thank you Allah, thank you 'that person'. i think i translated the information correctly and precisely. hopefully... really2 hoping that i was wrong, but i dont think i was. that is the truth and i have and i need to bare with it.

everything happened for a solid reason. yeah! for knowing the truth, finally i can tell myself with full of confidence... "aimi, at last you can stop waiting." ALHAMDULILLAH... He knows the best for me and i trust Him.

i asked for strength but Allah gave me difficulties to make me strong.
i asked for wisdom but Allah gave me problem to solve.
i asked for prosperity but Allah gave me brain n brawn to work.
i asked for courage but Allah gave me danger to overcome.
i asked for love but Allah gave me trouble for people to help.
i asked for favour but Allah gave me opportunities to grab.
we received nothing we wanted but we get everything we need.

Dia memahami

salam a'alaik.

sahabat2 semua apa khabar?! insya-allah sihat walafiat. cuma saya yang agak kureeng sihat sejak belakangan ni. ade je sakit2. hurm... ini sbb dosa2 saya lah nih. batuk, selesema, jatuh tangga, shut down, dll. tapi... itu bukan topic pada pagi ni.

alhamdulillah, pagi semalam kak alaq dan usrahmates saya dapat berpicnic! sedap2. kak alaq masak mushroom soup. meskipun instant punya, tapi.. terbaik!! hehehe... sambil menjamah rezeki Allah, kami tadabbur surah al-muzammil.

dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih , Maha Penyayang.

surah ini diturunkan di mekah. mengandungi 20 ayat dan merupakan surah ke 73 dalam alquran. apa yang saya faham, ada 5 perkara yang diperintahkan oleh Tuhan kita yang Maha Besar dalam surah ni.

1. Qiamullail.
2. Baca al-quran,
3. Berzikir [menyebut nama Allah]
4. Beribadah kepada Allah dengan sepenuh hati.
5. Bersabar.

ayat ke-7,

"sesungguhnya pada siang hari engkau sangat sibuk dengan urusan2 yang panjang."

tengok sahabat2, Allah tahu kita sibuk waktu pagi. menuntut ilmu, cari rezeki, dll. bila dah penat luangkan masa dengan hal2 dunia, apa salahnya kita luangkan masa malam kita dengan berjumpa dan beribadat kepada Tuhan kita. x salah kan? Allah cakap lagi kat kita semua,

"[Dialah] Tuhan timur dan barat, tidak ada tuhan selain Dia, maka jadikanlah Dia sebagai pelindung." [ayat ke-9]

wah~~ seronoknya ada yang offer nak jadi pelindung kita! x ke rasa sgt sweet? Ya Allah... kepada Allah kita memohon segala pertolongan dan kepadaNya kita memanjat kesyukuran. ada seorang sister ni pernah bagitahu saya,

'sesungguhnya Allah merindui rintihan hamba-hambaNya.'

sebab itu Dia memberi dugaan dan cubaan kepada kita. agar kita sentiasa ingat kita ada Allah untuk mengadu domba. agar kita mencari Dia untuk meluahkan rasa sedih dan gundah kita. agar kita merintih kepadaNya. sahabat2ku, pernah kita sedar x yang Dia rindu pada kita?

kadang2 bila kita sedih kita cari orang terdekat dengan kita kan? tapi kalau asek2 kita cari orang yang sama nak ceritakan masalah kita, x ke ada kemungkinan besar orang tersebut akan rasa macam nak hempuk je kita nih sbb asek2 ada masalah?? berbeza dengan Allah, Dia lagi suka kalau hamba-hambaNya mencari Dia x kira tika senang atau susah. di saat geembira atau sedih. sbb Allah sayang sangat dekat kita. kita sedar x?

apabila kami smpai ayat ke 20. saya rasa sangat sebak. rupa-rupanya Dialah yang sangat memahami hamba-hambanya. meskipun Allah perintahkan kita 5 perkara tadi, Dia masih consider keadaan kita yang sebenarnya hanyalah seorang hamba yang lemah.

"...Allah menetapkan ukuran malam dan siang. Allah mengetahui bahawa kamu tidak dapat menentukan batas2 waktu itu, maka dia memberi keringanan kepadamu, kerana itu bacalah apa yang mudah bagi [bagimu] di dalam Al-Quran..."

buatlah apa yang termampu. Allah just minta agar hanyalah Dia di dalam hati kita. analoginya macam ini. ada satu botol penuh dengan nescafe. bagi saya satu cara untuk isi botol itu dengan air kosong aka air mineral tanpa air tersebut bercampur dengan nescafe. senang aja. buang air nescafe itu, atau transfer nescafe tu ke tempat lain... cuci2 botol itu, and then baru lah masukan air mineral. senang kan?

samalah dengan dengan kita. botol itu ibarat HATI kita. kalau kita nak isi hati kita dengan perasaan kasih dan rindu pada Allah, kita harus buang rasa kasih kita pada yang x sepatutnya. contaminate. lepas da buang, bersihkan hati, barulah senang untuk kita place kan Allah dalam hati kita. kerana dengan hanya mengingati Allah hati akan tenang. Allah x ciptakan manusia dengan 2 rongga di hatinya. hanya satu. hanya untuk Allah.

sahabat2 cubalah baca tafsir surah ke-73 ini. best sangat! insya-allah...

p/s: semakin jatuh cinta kepadaNya.