changed? yet, i'm thankful.

i read almost all of my previous posts.
most of them, made me laugh out loud.
i can see the transition of me from the old aimi to the new one.
huh~~ new? perhaps.
the way i write is still the same.
but the way i think and the contents are different.
way~~~different.

yeah... never imagine i could be that different.
yeah...never imagine that i am me. now.. as if me.
once, there was one time when i thought of being the old aimi.
but, i just can't and i don't want to.

i enjoy being the new me.
even though sometimes it causes much pain.
but, the path that i chose will never be easy.

Apakah manusia mengira bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan hanya dengan mengatakan, "kami telah beriman," dan mereka tidak diuji?
[al-ankabut,29:2]

yes, it is not easy.
yet... being around the people who are in the same path... made it a lil bit easier and much more blessed being one of ansarullah. i am not alone. yes i am not.

Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mahukah kamu Aku tunjukkan suatu perdagangan yang dapat menyelamatkan kamu dari azab yang pedih?[10]
(Yaitu) kamu beriman kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya dan berjihad di jalan Allah dengan harta dan jiwamu. itulah yang lebih baik bagi kamu jika kamu mengetahui.[11]
nescaya Allah mengampuni dosa-dosamu dan memasukkan kamu ke dalam syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya sungai-sungai, dan ke tempat-tempat tinggal yang baik di dalam syurga 'Adn. Itulah kemenangan yang agung. [12]
dan (ada lagi) karunia yang lain yang kamu sukai (iaitu) pertolongan dari Allah dan kemenangan yang dekat (waktunya). dan sampaikanlah berita gembira kepada orang-orang mukmin. [13]
[as-saff,61:10-13]

do i want to let go all of these tawaran hebat from Allah just because of this 3 weeks holiday?
NEVER!!!

insya-allah.. never!

this not-so-long holiday, i'm going to prepare myself for the upcoming sem3. which is going to be triple hectic. plus, the juniors. wargh!! a senior??? purfffttt... insya-allah... but still i'm going to miss the moments when i was a junior. already miss my "mommy" [ you know who you are ^_^] got to get my head in the game!! ijtihad!!! ALLAHUAKBAR!!!