salam a'laik...
right now, this moment...
everything seems very hard.
every second feels very sudden.
every effort is worthless.
everything is falling apart.
yes, today was a very hectic day. the subjects weren't very critical but all the other works had burdened me. plus, this mucsle pain that i got from taekwando practice last night. today, it was like a very long day but only a few things that i settled.
the strongest among you is the one who practice patient.
i had tried. it was tiring. exhausting. killing me inside. why? because it was bleeding inside but still i tried to keep on telling myself that, "aimi, this is just a wound. you have duties to be done. ". keep on motivating myself internally. faking a smile just because i dont want others to be affected by my unstable mood. not pms.
as the hours passed by, i was getting far away from "the aimi hebat mode". it is empty. it is lonely. it is X SERONOK. but why am i feeling this way? yes! i am tired! i am tired of doing what i supposed to do. but... am i really2 tired?
did my mom said that she's tired when she called me just now?
NO.
did my dad said that he's tired when he had to drive all away from home to send me my wallet?
NO.
did Rasulullah said that he' tired when he had to fight for islam?
NO.
do i have the right to say that i am tired?
NO.. no! n0!!!!!
THIS IS MY DUTY.
NOT YOURS!
MINE! MINE!!!!
I WON'T DIE IF I DIDN'T SLEEP.
THE WORK HAD TO BE DONE.
but, i am just a humble servant. not more. i cannot expect everything to be perfect. but i can work my best towards perfection.
Allah said in the quran, and i believe in Him,
so, aimi!
just do the deeds! just do! you had chosen this path. you choice is the best for you, don't ever regret it. Allah is looking at you. all the things you do. either good or bad. it is all about your spirit and hardwork. Allah doesn't look at the result, it is the actions that matter the most. worst come to worst. i don't care. as long as i can feel that Allah is right here, in my heart.
right now, this moment...
everything seems very hard.
every second feels very sudden.
every effort is worthless.
everything is falling apart.
yes, today was a very hectic day. the subjects weren't very critical but all the other works had burdened me. plus, this mucsle pain that i got from taekwando practice last night. today, it was like a very long day but only a few things that i settled.
the strongest among you is the one who practice patient.
i had tried. it was tiring. exhausting. killing me inside. why? because it was bleeding inside but still i tried to keep on telling myself that, "aimi, this is just a wound. you have duties to be done. ". keep on motivating myself internally. faking a smile just because i dont want others to be affected by my unstable mood. not pms.
as the hours passed by, i was getting far away from "the aimi hebat mode". it is empty. it is lonely. it is X SERONOK. but why am i feeling this way? yes! i am tired! i am tired of doing what i supposed to do. but... am i really2 tired?
did my mom said that she's tired when she called me just now?
NO.
did my dad said that he's tired when he had to drive all away from home to send me my wallet?
NO.
did Rasulullah said that he' tired when he had to fight for islam?
NO.
do i have the right to say that i am tired?
NO.. no! n0!!!!!
THIS IS MY DUTY.
NOT YOURS!
MINE! MINE!!!!
I WON'T DIE IF I DIDN'T SLEEP.
THE WORK HAD TO BE DONE.
but, i am just a humble servant. not more. i cannot expect everything to be perfect. but i can work my best towards perfection.
Allah said in the quran, and i believe in Him,
"And say (O Muhammad pbuh) "Do deeds! Allah will see your deeds, and (so will) His Mesengger (pbuh) and the believers. And you will be brought back to All-Knower of the unseen and the seen. And He will inform you what you used to do."
[at-taubah, 9:105]
[at-taubah, 9:105]
so, aimi!
just do the deeds! just do! you had chosen this path. you choice is the best for you, don't ever regret it. Allah is looking at you. all the things you do. either good or bad. it is all about your spirit and hardwork. Allah doesn't look at the result, it is the actions that matter the most. worst come to worst. i don't care. as long as i can feel that Allah is right here, in my heart.
"Ya Muqallibal Qulub, thabbit Quluubana fii diinik"
Allah, i miss you.
~dr.Aimi~
~dr.Aimi~
4 comments:
hurmmm....erkkk
salam
errk wat?
Inspiring!!!
Thanks!
p/s: Aimi, wholeheartedness is the antidote to exhaustion! huhu...
i love you ball!
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