oh BOY....

salam alaik... salam muhibbah, salam perpaduan...

i woke up. as usual, search for my hp and there it was 2.37 am. around me was dark. my dad switched off all the lights i supposed. there, all of us. sleeping silently like babies infront of the big screen tv. ok, all of us, except big sis and mom.

then, i switched on the tv. and my habit, it always gonna be channels 611, 615,616, 701, 702 in a row first. if there are nothing that interest me, then, the other channels will be so lucky. hah ha hah.

suddenly, the living-room was brighten up by the light. there, i saw... the most gorgeous boy in my entire life. my one and only little brother. i remember the last time i used to play with him around the backyard. with his heavy drypers, his mucus coming out of his nose, his coconut hair, and not to forget his skin as white as snow which he inherited from my tokwan...

my tokwan had return to whom she belonged a long time ago. i think dat particular year was 1996 or 1997. i was still a kid back there. donno the meaning of losing the person that we loved and cared so much for... ever. my mom once told me that, when tokwan was still alive, she always pray to Allah,

"ya Allah, Kau permudahkanlah saat-saat kematianku. Kau permudahkanlah saat-saat sakaratul mautku. aku memohon padaMu ya Allah, agar kematian aku tidak akan menjadi beban kepada saudara-saudaraku yang masih hidup."

and mom said, He always listens to our prayer. and tokwan passed away in peace without being a burden to anyone. mom said, she had her last breath when she was alone in her room. she leaved us silently, forever. her pengebumian also went smoothly. there, at terengganu... where my boleved tokwan left us. everytime i pay her a visit at her graveyard, i tell my self not to cry. coz some says that crying will hurt the deceased. but i did, deep in my heart. huh~ tokwan, i miss u.

hurm.. back to my brother. for two years i left home. i didnt stand a chance to observed my brother grow up. from a boy, into a guy. hahaha. well, he is handsome. see the big sis laa!! hahaha. he grows up so fast. one day, when he stands beside me... i realised that. WHAT THE TUUUT!!! HE'S AT MY HEIGHT. and more, now i can borrow his shoes and slippers. same size! yes! i noe... aiyak. and he is just 13. donno how big he's gonna be when he turns 18. hahahah.
among the 6 of us, i think i love him the most. haha. plz dont tell the others. he always listens to my words, ok sumtimes he didnt. hahah. and if i am watching movies on the tv, he'll be besides me trying to make me out of focus. ha! love to punch him in the face. although he already had a black belt, but he cant beat me. for i also had my black belt when i was standard 6.

speaking about black belts, once my lil sis [the last one] got bullied at school. and came home crying. mom forced me to asked her why. i did, but she just kept silent. then, to cheer her up... i said,

"aida, jangan takot. gtaw je sape buat aida nangis. kat rumah ni ade 4 blackbelts [kaklong,me,anis,abgkiki]. kitorang boley belasah je orang jahat tuh."

haha, so proud to say 4 blackbelts in this house. so, dont try to pick on our siblings, or u'll be dead in a second. hahaha. kidding! *wink*

about my one and only lilttle man in my life, abgkiki, u'll grow up. and when u do, plz... still be my lil brother who i always take away his pillow when he is sleeping and never get mad at me.
heheh. till dat day come, i'll enjoy bossing u around like i always do. ^_^

okes. it is 4 am already. gonna do my hajat prayer and go to bed till subuh. wargh!! *yawn*

note: he's now currently studying in smksi. took arabic class. seluar londeh. rambut hmpir spike. his punch is getting powerful. adoi...